End of Days!!

Its 30th and tomoro at midnite another stupendous year comes to an end. The 31st, Arun`s b`day, the occasion which is celebrated every year with a festive mood. This time, i`d rather sit home. I dont know why i feel that way, but, i dont wanna be a part of any new year celebrations anywhere. Yeah!! One reason is, im wearing the "malai" and im not supposed to do a lot of stuffs. So now postponing all the parties after the 7th, when im back after the trip to sabari malai. But I hardly understand my sudden change of attitude towards new year eve parties.

Today, me and arun had some talking, i told him i was glad the year was ending. He asked me why, i said it was a bad year. Now that makes me wonder, i was selected for a job, i cleared the one arrear which i ever had, and ive spent a lot of money on myself!! The year wasnt supposed to be a bad one, but everything came to me all of a sudden. I was happy for a minimum number of days of the year. Otherwise, it was a bad bad bad forgettable year. Of course, every fogettabe thing cannot be forgotten. Arun told me the same thing. He said, it was a damn good year for me. Look at what im destined to?? Im not celebrating even when im kind of successfull. Like they always say, if you get one you obviously lose another.

Now, I really really want 2007 to be a memorable year. I want to do a lot of stuffs which i may never do in my life time. You know, i really want to have fun in the final semester. I will try my best to forget 2006. Im going to look forward. Im going to party, im going to hookah and hopefully im goin to spend a lot of money. You know the last 6 months in which im totally going to be depending on my dad. Obviously, i need my dad and mom for the rest of my life. But i wish i take care of them. Thats supposed to be in another post. I love my family and friends and no one else in the world. Only my sis, reads all these crap, and an obsessed moron, me, read it to make sure i have written the readable stuff. excuse me, Am i psychic?

cough cough... Kill me!!

Yeah!! For the past 4 to 5 days ive been coughing like a dog, dont mind to imagine how dogs cough!!Anyways, it feels like shit, when you have to cough all the time. My trachea is all hurt and i suppose it must be bleeding now, off the coughs!(cough)ts been some time since ive posted, the reason, one, i was off to chidambaram and two, i din find an appropriate topic(as if i got one now!!!!).Okay, to talk about chidambaram, i have to admit, i din do wat i wanted to do. I did spend some time at the temple, but it was too crowded. Had some okay time, watching the channels on tv, which we dont get here in chennai. Then sat in my cousins ice cream shop, for sometime. Time just flew by.Relatives asking me to eat every hour.That is what we call, anbu thollai!

Okay, a useless post it is alright!Anyways, too bad, nothing much happened in chidambaram for me to write here.I love the place and the temple. But, i went there on another mission, to think, to realise my value, to find myself and get myself on the road from no where.I guess i havent succeeded much on that. But, this dog will surely have its day! I`ll be waiting.It was always my dream to find a place where i can go when i feel low. Im in search of that place.Chidambaram natraja temple was a trial worth it.

ciao!!

As said earlier, im leaving for chidambaram tonight. Goin to reinvent myself. And i got my new goggles today. Its a fast track one and cost me a fortune. Actually cost my dad a fortune. And i love it. I got my contacts coupla days back and glad that its settled in my eye pretty well.Im jus loving today. For the first time, i cud see myself clearly with goggles on, into the mirror. It doesnt sound exciting! But, it sure is for a guy who cudnt have a good vision from kindergarden.Thats exageration!! I wore glasses only by 7!! Okay, now i feel all excited.Im leaving to chidambaram, and im all geared up.

Filled my phone with a lot of music.Took 3 books!! One is Night Bloom by herbert lieberman, the next is The lost Don by Mario Puzo(Damn!! hes too good!!)and The monk Who sold his ferarri!! Theres a lot of reading to be done out there.I was planning to take my laptop, but i ended up against it.Gonna hit the road tonight, obviously in a bus!! Dad doesnt allow me to even take a ride in his car.Yeah, the last time we went to chidambaram, and i was driving, he dint lean back a second and relax. Its better when he drives than, getting screwed up in the head by letting me drive.I keep away from asking nowadays!! Ooops!! shifting topics again. Okay!! Im off guys!! see ya`ll in a week!! tata!!

Worth it??

I was reading some blog and i founs this "How much is my blog worth" tag.and her blog was worth for like around 1168$.I was excited and i tried doing that for this blog.There it came, "Your blog is worth 0.00$" in bold.
Who cares?? Im writing all this stuff for my own satisfaction.Im totally happy about it.

Hail Bharathi!!

I have this tendancy of digging up old songs and listenin to them. Sutrum vizhi was one of them. I have been going around asking people if they knew the song. I was shocked!! Every single person said the song was, strum vizhi chudare from ghajini!!
omg!! This is a Bharathiyar song and with Rahman`s music. I used to love it, when it was out. Then forgot about the song. Always happens! Then, i found this song, ironically on Bharathiyar`s birthday. It was awesome. I din feel the lyrics before. But it made an impact on me this time. Ive been constantly humming this song. I listen to it atleast 20 times a day, and i (hopelessly) sing along every single time!

Since then, Ive been looking for Bharathi`s songs and listening to them. Wow, the man did do a great job. It is the beauty he incurs in every word of his poems. Ive become his fan and believe me, Jus read his song and you`ll feel it.

Sigh!! Its finally over!!

Its 2:30 in the afternoon, had a bath and lunch. Sittin in front of the computer, as usual, listening to tere bina from guru, pathetically humming along.Wait a minute!! Im vetti again!! Yipee!! Yup, it got over today, yeah im talkin about the exams. Finally(sigh)!! The exams were goin on like forever.The day of results is another story.But now, im retaining my vetti status.

Right!! Now people wont believe im vetti. Coz i have left orkut.Ive never thought of leaving it.But, got enlightened one day.But that doesnt mean im not vetti. Im absolutely vetti! Have some TV series from friend, gonna be watchin that. And as I said, goin to chidambaram, for 10 days.I am gonna be gettin contact lenses in a coupla days, hopefully.Goin to watch a movie today(veyil).I believe it gonna be a good movie.
Thats it, jus wrote for the sake of writing. chow.

Im Happy!!

Well, its really been a while since i said that. Yeah about a decade i guess!! Ive never really, have accepted the way life has for me.Ive never been happy with wat i have.Thats bad and i jus realised it.It is pretty late. All through the blog ive jus expressed myself like a depressed moron, who has his own square in life and who never wanted to come out of it.Its gonna change. I jus realised, time to think and solidarity helped a lot. Exams have been haunting me all this while.When the exams are over, im gonna run,away from this place;to chidambaram.Thats my native place.Ive always refused to go there with my folks, but inside i love the place.Got a temple which is of my knowledge the best.

Its got space.I can sit down and breathe-fresh and good air.I am gonna spend some time in that temple.Thats why im going.Ive not all of a sudden shanged into a spiritual kind and all.I jus love walkin around the temple,sittin there,looking at lives and me being happy.Thats the basic aim for every individual aint it?-to be happy.And there, i look at lives, not people.After a long time, im now very happy and I really dont wanna lose it.The past has or has not been too good for me.Ive actually never known if the life has been good to me.I dont care about the future.And I love the present.Good to be happy!