Dreamland blues!

Sometimes, you wake up with a refreshing mood, with your mind all eared up of doing the things you`ve planned to do! Today, the exact opposite happened to me! It was a stupid dream. The most pathetic dream. Yes! I dreamt today morning at 9! I was pleading to someone for something, which would probably come for the rest of my life! But,thats somethin which I would never do. Even if it cost my life, I wouldn`t beg for it to someone! I just hated that dream. Yeah, it is qualified to be a nightmare.

Apparently, I had another dream. Which I kinda enjoyed. In this one, I was talking to a friend who is a fellow candidate to be placed in the same company as I am! He tells me, the company has sent us a brand new, Lenovo, laptop with a core 2 duo! Wow, mann! Thats great! Then, I come home, I find the laptop. Put it aside and call sue to tell him, what my company does and his company doesnt! Then I wake up for a second, ask myself if this is real, then fall asleep. I get the answer in the dream, that it is. Im happy in my dream! Damn!! Then after an hour, I wake up and realise that it was just a dream!

Thus, the day gets spoiled, coz,
1. I did something which i wud never do, in my dream, and
2. I was disappointed that, the other dream was not true!

Flash news: Ram bought the gmat book. Not yet studying, but its a start!

Rampi Says...

Life`s like a derailed train coming down on you. You`d rather have a chocolate cake, having fun while it does, than be frightened the whole time!

- "that 70`s show"

You put me to sleep everynight man!! Thanks!

I have been blogging for over 7 or 8 months now, and Ive never dedicated a post for my favorite musician! So this one goes for him! Rahman! You all love him. For, me, his music just defines my thoughts. I can easily spend hours listening to him!

My sister, in chicago, is goin for the june 9th concert there. Ive never been to a Rahman concert. Id love to be there. There isnt any facts that I`d like to say about him. I just wanna dedicate this post to him! He`s just as famous and everyone knows about him!

Rock Bottom Laziness!

Thanks to thou, who was kind enough to lend me his guitar. Im looking forward to learn playing it. Actually, I`ve been looking into the internet for guitar lessons. But, its never as good as the real stuff. But, anyways, thanks for the guitar man! I really appreciate it!

There has been a lot of rock shows, going on around. In, chennai, there has been rock shows going on in YMCA grounds for the past one week. Edo, had tickets for a last week show, and he had asked me to come. I actually, wanted to go with the guys, and have fun. But, ended up not goin. 2 reasons!
1. Sometimes, you like a person, and u like everything that person likes and hate everything that person hates. On the other hand, when you hate a person, you hate everything the person likes and like everything the person hates! Apparently, rock music is something which a person i hate, likes. So, I kinda learnt to hate rock music.
2. There was "the match"! Couldnt afford to miss it!

Thou, also asked me if, I could come to the Aerosmith show in Blore! And, again, Im not much into Aerosmith, though i respect those guys! So, ended up not goin!

Flashnews: Ram, couldnt move his ass, to join the tennis classes, eventhough, he really wants to join!

And, I said "make it 200!"

I can feel every muscle in my body ache after bowling a 3 over spell. It was a bet match. As i entered the scene, they said it was a 100Rs bet. And I said, "make it 200!". Well it was 100, and I dont know why i was so confident! We were the old schoolmates playing against the so called younger guys. We were once invinsible. Those were the times when i used to get down as no 3 and play a decent innings.And a decent innings is like, i hit around 20 runs. And yeah, im talking about tennis ball cricket. After about 2 years we guys played a match yesterday. The setting was good. Better ground.

We lost the toss and they elected to bat. We had 11 guys. But only 4 bowlers who can bowl decently. I joined in that list very recently. It was a 14 over match. A bowler can a bowl a max of 4 overs. They had good players. But it was the 5th over when i came to bowl, the 1st wicket fell. It was stupid match. We chased badly and lost by 30 runs.
But, all in the game. Had a good time though. Except, I growl everytime, I sit down or get up!

Rampi Says...

An idle mind is a devil`s work shop. Hey devil, you have to pay me 2 months advance!

Untitled - ugh, i hate it!

I got an invite from a friend to join a community called flixter. It just asks for me to fill in my details. And, suddenly, on a screen i click "next" and the site itself collect contacts from my google account and send them invites. I find the community interesting, coz its all about movies. But, I dont want people joining it and cursing me to send the invite. And, By doing this, I also sent invites to some people I hate. And, the worst part is, they even joined. Its a pathetic feeling, really. Btw, I really have nothing to write, just scribbling something which comes into my mind.

The other day, went to a movie called chennai 600028. Good flick. A fun movie. It was hilarious. Its about cricket and they`ve taken the movie well. We had a good laugh. But mozhi was far better. Its a feel good movie. Every moment of the film, you feel, u had a life like that. Thats how a movie should be. Anyways, got nothing more to write. cya.

confused- Broke my head, rolled it in a bowling alley and ate brain sandwich! Help me!

Just before the exams which i just wrote, i had a lot of plans for the holidays. First, i decided to work in a call center, before i join i-flex. For, like 2 months, you know, earning some good bucks, not depending on dad for my expenditure. But, then, decided against it, when i realised, it wasnt worth it, except for the money. So, the call center thing is out of question now. Then, second, i was planning to write gmat and keep, so was planning to prepare for it. The initial step for the preparation is to buy the gmat book, which i havent taken yet. Im now almost sure that, I`ll be taking the exam before I start working. But, studying for gmat alone is not gonna be good, coz, im really really not good at studying! So, have to do something else. Whatever I do, there must be a meaning to it. I thought of volunteering to some social help organisation and help them for the next 2 months. But, confused. Cant think straight(im not gay!!!). I am jus nervous that, i might get it all wrong! Gimme some sugestions, of what i should be doing for the next 2 months. help me!

Cinderella Man

A good cinema, should make you feel "wow, man, that was good" a the end of it. Cinderella Man is that kind of a movie. Russel Crowe, does an excellent job as always. We`ve seen that in gladiator and A beautiful mind. And the Director, Ron Howard gets you right into the story. The movie is about a boxing legend, James.J Braddock, who won over the animal, Max Baer. The biggest strenght of the movie is, the director shows and makes the audience feel the agony of james` wife, played by Renée Zellweger. I saw this movie on TV late at night, and woke up the next morning, with the movie, 1st thing in my mind. Ron Howard, seems to have problems with writing his own scripts. But, he does a great job on adapted stories. He deserves the oscar. Just, grab the dvd of this movie and watch. Its worth it.

Mi...

Last week was a satisfactory week. May 18th, friday, was my mom`s b`day. And im glad, i cud do something which could be called as birthday celebration, to my standards. Honestly speaking, mom has never celebrated her b`day. Maybe a handful of occasions when me and sis gave her flowers or greeting cards, which said, "ma we love you". We have to feel great on our birthdays. For, mom, it has always been just another day, doing the dishes, cooking breakfast, lunch, dinner and my 4th meal. None of her sisters wishes her. Her birthdays, for the past 55 years have been like this. But, this time, thanks to the money my sister had sent me, I took her, dad and my grandmother to a beautiful movie. Yeah, thats the celebration ive been talking about. And, the occasion was, my mom`s b`day. So, it can be accounted as a celebration. Im glad, and I could definitely say that, she felt good, on her b`day. I had a feeling of satisfaction.

I also bought her a pizza. She, used to ask me for it, whenever I go out with friends for dinner. I always used to forget about it, the next time I go out. But, i remembered. I went to the pizza corner, bought her a good medium pizza, and came home. But, this was the next day of her b`day. But again, glad i could atleast do this for her. It actually feels good when you do stuffs which pleases the people you love. Love you ma... always do.

Pride

I have successfully completed six months, since i wrote the post about me following rules and all. I am proud to say that, I`ve managed to follow the road rules and traffic rules. Ever since then, I`ve not got into a share auto. Share autos are forbidden to accomodate more than 3 people. But none of the auto guys follow the rules. My motto was that, i shouldnt get into share autos which break the rules. But, even when i get into the share auto and demand the driver not to take more than 3 passengers, no one including the co passengers accept to travel by it, fearing the probable hike in the price. As I said, the mistakes must be corrected from the bottom. And the root cause for the guys to commit mistakes is us, the public. And the other motto i took up on that post is, i shud never bribe the cops. I dint get a chance to meet the guys on the road as i mostly follow the traffic rules.

It feels good when there are no mistakes committed from my side. Makes me guilty free.

Spiderman III

I go outta the house to escape the never ending TV serials to the cinemas to see Spiderman III, and there I again see a 3 hour TV serial. The movie was crap. There are totally 4 or maybe 3 action scenes in the movie. They keep repeating the same scenes on tv. You go there with an expectation and you end up seeing a "The young and Restless" look alike. Good god! It was too boring. The characters at some point of time have to move on from the romance and get over the stupic break up! That never happens in the movie. The ending is typical tamil movie. In this case I have to be proud that an english movie has reached tamil standards. But, the point is; "A friend run into the path of a knife and get himself killed to save his friend`s life" is a concept which hasnt been in use even in tamil cinemas since 1995! Outsated is an understatement.

Its got all the hype and toby macguire. But it, on first place shouldnt have been made to a movie. And, someone told me that Kirsten Dunst is nowhere near the beauty of the red haired girl in the comic book! I should admit, i really loved her as a little girl in small soldiers, but she looked real bad in this movie. Im not a lover of super hero movies normally. But, I believe a super hero movie should be as good as batman begins. Thats one movie which I really really loved watching.

Bottom line : Spiderman III is a pile of very old dry tamil cow dung! Please dont degrade yourself by rating it good!

D`oh

I developed the 2 rolls today, which i took in yercaud. Very disappointed again. I experimented a lot and, one of the rolls wasnt good. So, some of the good pictures turned out to be bad. I hate it when this happens. Anyways. I`ll try and learn. some of the good ones, i`ve posted in the photoblog.

Blurred Vision!

We all go through a lot of things in the journey towards eternity. And, for me, engineering is one of the long trips I took in the journey. It was long enough that I was desperate to finish it. It is a different feeling that Im gonna be on my own, and it is sad indeed that, we guys are gonna part! But, yeah eternity is not an easy destination. All those things apart. Im now happy that I`ve finished engineering. Though I cant be so sure about it. I have no idea where each of us will be in another 3 or 4 months. I`ll have to find new friends, new people new environment. Although I dont feel the way I felt when I entered college from school, a pinch of nervousness prevails. AS always, to satisfy myself, its all in the game.

Had finished my 62nd engineering exam on friday. We wanted to celebrate. But, none of us felt that great. Or maybe it was just me. I remembered those days, when me and the guys discussed how much our college sucked! But, its always the nature that, when we leave something, we realise the worth of it. Thats okay. Im sure, im gonna miss college. I dont know about others, but college was the only place where i had fun.

I went for a family trip to yerkaud. Me, mom, 2 uncles and 2 aunts. Really, it was an awesome place. It wasnt cold, but it was pleasant. Very pleasant. Uncle had booked a room with an awesome view. It was a great trip, excepting the petty quarells. Now Im back, sitting and listening to Save you-Provoked. Awesome song and Im addicted to it! Maybe, we guys will plan something this week. Hope we have some fun in our last days together.

As Good As it Gets

21 years of journey towards eternity has been breathtakingly phenomenal. Learnt, lost, got, gave, troubled and troubled by a lot of things and people. As a little kid, in school, I`ve never felt competition. Never have been the best kid, with best scores in the class. I used to wonder how it would feel being a 'topper'. Maybe, it was a great feeling. But I was already feeling great. And the greater I feel, as I take my next step towards eternity. I have definitely had my bad, sad days. But who hasnt? Now, at this moment, I feel, I lived a perfect life. You dont have to be a winner in every aspect. What matters is, at the end of the day, I am happy.

As good as it gets. I love that phrase. Its a movie which has Jack Nicholson and Helen Hunt, a romantic comedy. Good one. But, not here to talk about the movie. Everyday, I wake up to sunshine, I feel one more day old. I feel it, and its a good feeling. When Im older, and much more busier, I will remember these days, as the days I enjoyed lving. But I wont be complaining. Living every single day to its capacity. I love life.

Yeah, its me!

Its been quite a while since I actually posted. But I have my reasons! No! Im lying. I`ve been in the so called "oppice" for the past week, ever since I came from goa. Oppice, is nothing but, vetti oppice. Its a place where we all sit in our homes doing nothing. Yeah, thats where I was, before and after the goa trip. So I have enough experience in the oppice. Thats enough of the oppice shit. Now the reason I am posting is, to avoid my nephew and niece, who are here for their summer vacation. My niece is an under aged brat, equally irritating, just because I gave her an extra attention when I was at her place. And my nephew, immature 15 year old. I often pity him. Maybe because the place they get their education. He gets a good 90% score in his school, but that aint enough.

I have been wanting to write the so called experiences in goa. It was a great trip. We all loved it. Goa is a photographer`s paradise. But for an amateur like me, it is disappointing when the pics dont come out well. But, yeah who cares? I do it for my satisfaction. We went to these deserted forts. It was hot, very hot there, especially in the forts, but it was worth it. WE visited the Champora and the Aguada forts. WE visited a number of beaches. We bsicaly did a lot of stuffs together. Fun, is the keyword. But goa is an expensive place. I spent a good 4 grand, excluding the travel expenses.

I have been reading a lot of blogs when I am at the oppice. I feel so down in the line wheni read some of them. Wow!, Man, I lack the feel when I write it. hmmm, again who cares? I write for my satisfaction.

For the pics from the goa trip, check out the following links..

http://www.flickr.com/photos/94337653@N00/?saved=1

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7517776@N02/

http://mydearmemories.blogspot.com/

Rampi Says...

Your garden fruits are not always sweet!

Definitely, an unforgettable trip! Goa is a beautiful place. That is obvious. But surely, after chicago, its the best place I`ve been. Actually, thats the farthest place I`ve been in India! Yeah, I loved the trip. All the guys were in the mood to groove. We had excellent fun with each other. And, finally in the end of college life, we get to understand each other properly. And, it was a great gang.

Thou - Mastermind of the trip!Very responsible, and always ready to have fun!
Edo - The silent guy. Wipes any kind of tension with a smile.
Sue - Another mastermind behind the trip. He booked the tickets. And, yeah reponsible and understands people.
Sori - Makes a guy shut up wih just a stare. Looks like a bollywood hero with his sunglasses.
Shan - Mr. Irresponsile. Misplaced my bag, lost his wallet twice, lost the keys to his luggage, and lot more of his "leelaigal"!
Zbhai- The fun guy of the group. Laughs at the silliest jokes.
body - The weekest guy of the group. Confused all the time. But he is "Romba Nallavan".
Saro - He laughs at everything me and sue does. Adjusting is a problem.

It was a good trip and we all loved it. Thank you guys for the experience.

P.S. My photogrphs taken there are really really bad!

My Pics :)

I`ve been taking pictures in my slr for some time now. The 1st roll which was already there in the camera... was expired and thus was a flop show. Today I developed another roll which has come up pretty well. I took the pictures mostly near my house and in the garden. Taking the camera to Goa now, will be back with another collection!

Visit my other blog to check out the pictures.

Whats worse than a Hot bad day?

When you have a bad day, its like getting hit by a cotton ball and you end up getting a head ache. It was like that yesterday. I had been in thou`s place monday nights. Played Brian Lara cricket 2007, did little bit of project report work, slept at 5 in the morning and got up at 7 and came home. I took print out of the report. Wich took like 1 hour for a copy and i took 2 copies. And pressure from my friend Se to go to college and get the report verified soon. I finished the printing process only by 12. Went to college to see our guide hogging on "Drumstick" Sambar rice. Couldn`t stand seeing it. So I waited. Waited for half an hour for her to finish her lunch. Then she found small mistakes. She asked us to redo it!! hell with her.

Then came home. Dint have money. I was bankrupt after thou`s home night, the previous night. Went to the atm, took money and bought papers. Came back and started printing. In a wink, 20 papers dot stuck in the printer. Wow!! I was sweating like hell. I had to finish the work the next day. Dint know what to do. I then called "body". He asked me to come home and take printout. Its a good 10 to 15 kms to his place. So went there and took print out. The bad day just continued the next day. Went to the shop for binding and he said he would take a life time to bind it. So went to se`s place and then gave it for binding somewhere near his place. Phew! Finally it was over! A good 30 hours of nightmare. But it feels good that it is over now! With the tempo increasing for the trip which starts day after, it feels even better.

In Dino!

Watched 300 the day before. Bottom Line : Awesome visual effects! The guys` abs were too damn good. Shit mann! All the 300 guys had abs like that. They must be working out for a living! Then we stayed in Tho`s place for the night. Jus 3 of us. We watched the bad display of the south africans and playing Brian Lara`s cricket 2007. It was fun. We played till 5 in the morning and then hit the bed. I came back home, ate and slept again. Nowadays, the sleep constituting most of the time of my life.

Off late, I`ve been addicted to a particular song. Its called In Dino from a movie called Metro-life in a city. Its an awesome song. Ive spent a total of 2 hrs waiting for that song to be telecast on tv, untill i finally downloaded it. Its just a great song. And, I feel I am missing something in life. But, I guess I am absolutely happy now. I just love the way life is goin on now. But, nothing can last forever. So keeping my fingers crossed. Love you all! Just got nothing much to post about. :)

Blank Mind!

Knowing a celebrity doesnt make anyone look cool! No reason to mention it, but it just crossed my mind. There are a lot of guys whom I know who knows, you know who, celebrities. Doesnt make them celebrities for sure. It seriosuly aint a topic to post about. I wrote a post last night. Wasnt good, so deleted it. Recovered the same post and changed some of it. Still wasnt good enough. So deleted it. Wrote another post, which wasnt good either. So deleted it and now I`m writing this one. Going to watch 300 tomorrow. Saw finding neverland today. Finding neverland was just a beautiful movie. Depp is awesome. So is Kate Winslett. They are just good actors.

I met up with an old friend with whome i had a huge quarell sometime back. Its been 5 months since i saw him. Quite a big quarell. Fought our souls out!! Met up with him th day before and we were okay with each other. I cant call him a friend now, but i can forgive him as a human being. Maybe, he isnt even sorry, but yeah, to me what he did was bad and i forive him for that. The other things, i did some shopping. Got 3 t-shirts, 2 shirts and 2 jeans for 1300 bucks. It was an awesome sale. And i got a Nike shoe for 1300 bucks, which was worth 2300/-. So happy i saved some money.

Rampi Says....

Being jealous about someone just because that person is having more fun than you are is absolutely stupid...

Garden State...

I saw this movie in star movies late last night. I loved it. As I saw it, I thought I must be the only one to like it. I`ve never heard of the movie before I saw it. I knew Zach Braf from scrubs. And to my surprise, he has written and directed the film. For a small time, TV series star, he has dona a brilliant job. And yeah Natalie Portman. Gorgeous as usual. She gives you the feeling that you know her for years, in the movie. Very cute. I simply loved the movie. It deals with the confused mind of a low life guy who ran away from home to LA, and then he comes back for his mother`s funeral. Zach has played the role beautifully. I at times felt me in the role. The confused young man finds a way to stay happy in the end.

I have to say, I loved Zach in scrubs. The comedy sitcom without the back laughs. Its nice. And I already love Natalie Portman from V for Vendatta. She is very very cute in the movie. You just instantly fall in love with her. I found a guy quote in his review for this movie that.. "For our grandfathers it was "its a wonderful life", for our parents it was "the graduate" , for our big brothers it was "Fight club" and for us, its "Garden State". It aint much of Ita a wonderful life, but its a beautiful movie. I liked it mostly because, I saw myself on screen.

blah blah blah...

You want something? go get it! Period!

Thats a quote from persuit of happyness. And yeah of course i believe it. I also believe in another thing. I am responsible for everything I do! I am the only reason that I am happy now. I am the reason for all the problems I faced. And I herey take a oath that, I wouldn`t blame anyone else for what happens to me. Deep in the situation`s theory, im sure, I`ll be the reason for what that happens. There you go, that made me feel better.

I`ve been wierd for the past 4 months. I`ve developed an incredible self esteem. The "I am What I am!!" attitude. Maybe wrong, but thats the way I am now! I`ve become an extrovert. Its a drastic change. From a selfless moron with no self respect, asking infinite sorrys just to get rid of the issues even if i had not done anything, to a guy who boasts of what he is. Its practically huge. But, we learn in life. And the lessons urge us to take decisions and change us. For now, I can say Im happy of what I am and I`ll be happy forever.One lesson that i`ve learnt is, if you have a problem you deal with it. No one else in the whole world are in a state to help you!
Its got philosophical today! sigh... chow..

Rampi Says....

The environment hasn`t changed, we are just immune to it!

Skating on the Soap!

You all know the story of Ram being vetti(jobless) all day. But does any of you know the story of Ram sitting and watching television all day? I agree. There isnt a considerable difference. But, I got more options in Tv now, than before. Yeah, it took me a record 6 months to persuade my parents to get a STB(set top box). Thats cable for the paid channels. I got it for the world cup. But by the time it was installed, India was out of the world cup. But, nevertheless, its been a great time pass.I get all the channels now, and I watch everything. Im so glued now, that my parents repaired the old portable television to watch the daily soaps. And believe me, there are quite a lot of them.

Before getting the Stb, I did a small thing by asking my parents to "sacrifice" the soaps for one night, coz I was watching a movie. Mom, after a considerable struggle gave up. Dad, was desperate. He was so desperate to have the remote and watch the soap. That was a little too much for missing a soap for a day. Its getting into the head of the people who stay at home. They get addicted to it. And I hate it when mom justifies it by saying "its just for entertainment". My god! Dad was fighting for the remote to me for "entertainment". And it was just one day! Ive never disturbed them when they watch that shit. And mom watches soaps in which she doesnt even know the name of the characters. And, believe me they are not even near good. I`ve went through some tooth-biting watching sessions. Its totally out-of-the-mind stuff. Its totally stupid. But yet they watch it like they got nothing else to do! This should end at some point of time. I sure do wish it does.

I`ve suddenly got this urge to blog everyday. And here I am! Its 1:45am and im sitting and typing. Today, or rather yesterday was good. Did nothing useful, but it was fun. Had to go out on a project work, and got it completed in a matter of time. Have been watching the match, WI vs NZ till now. WI are in a bad shape. and the black caps seem to be in good touch. I wish, SA or NZ to get the cup. Dunno what is gonna happen and who cares? India is out of the tournament.The thought of it haunts me. No more cricket talks!

Doin it the Goan Way!

Keep your ears wide open! Yeah, I said Goa! And, my requests have been granted finally by the guys. The tickets have been booked. We are leaving to goa on 13th of april and coming back on 20th. Thats a whole week. Im excited alright. The guys at a certain stage started calling me "goa fantasy guy" (I made that up!!). Now, the stage is set for the ultimate fun of the lifetime. Now i have to get geared up for a trip which is 2 weeks away. We are going directly to banglore. We stay there for a day and a night and then we leave for goa. Its gonna be fun with 10 guys on board. Looking forward to it! :)

Flash News: Ram, bought batteries and film rolls for the camera and has already started clicking his way to fame!!
(I agree! That was a little too much!!)

Yet Another Flash news: Ram could`nt stop talking to someone he hates!
(Yeah! Thats it! Im outta here!

Back To Hell!

The title doesn`t mean, Dindigul was a complete success. But yeah, I had to rush to college in the morning to get my project review done, came back home, slept for 5 hours and got up with a damned head ache. So, this is hell. But, Dindigul was fun. We were only 3 of us. We had a preety decent hotel room, and yeah we watched the pathetic match. It did not affect me much, the indians simply dint deserve to get into the super eights. But, yeah lets get over it and Im gonna forget cricket for sometime now.

We went to a place called, Sirumalai. A very beautiful endangered mountain range, which hardly had any human inhabitants. Well, thats apparently one of the place which would be close to my heart all the time. We took a helluva lot of pictures and yeah we had quality time there. The most embarassing parts of the trip is where we dine and interact with JK`s family. They were all good people, infact very good people who talked a language which none of us understood, and they cooked real damn well. But, dining at someone`s place whom we dont know, is embarassing. But we coped up well. And the marriage, was good. Good food, good people, unknown language, and very few people. We were the odd men out and i can say we really dint love it.

The heat riding up our spinal cords, upto the modula oblangada, we did manage pretty well. We went to another place called Mallai-Kottai(mountain-fort). Its a fort built by Tippu Sultan. Overall, it was a satisfactory trip and i dont regret it. But the heat is building up and guy like me who drives around half my life, its real hard. Now, im back to hell, and im being promoted in the office. Dont take it seriously. Im working in a vetti office. And im a vetti officer. Now, im the CEO of the office and believe me, there are quite a number of ppl working under me.

Rampi Says....

There are gonna be sections called Rampi Says here-after. This section contains great quotes.

Heres todays quote, Its from national current affairs.
(P.S. It maybe a bit gross!)

T.R.Balu, got shit from his colleagues, put it in his toilet and Forgot to flush!

(Another P.S. This is why im the king of mockai(pj)!)

Expensive Embarassment!

Yippee!! I`ve got my Slr camera finally! Thank you Kirthi, Love you! You can see me posting my works hereafter. But, thats gonna take some time. Im goin to Dindugul tommorow. Its a place near madurai. We,ie, me, Arun and Kugha, are goin to a friend`s(jaikumar`s) sister`s marriage. She is just his cousin sis, but yeah im goin to have some fun(yeah! In dindugul! Dont you dare raise your eyebrows!). I usually feel embarassed when im called to a function happening to someone whom i dont know! But yeah, thats how life is(I really dint have to say that, but whatever?!).

It once happened, when this bugger, Kugha, took us to a birthday party. You wont believe this. It was the birthday party of, one of his friend`s, who happened to a girl(aunty?!), mother, who turned 50! That really is one of the most ridiculous thing i`ve ever done. Me and Arun dint step in the party hall(?!). We went for a second to say hi to the girl(aunty?!). But we werent a part of it. They were singing a birthday song for a 50yr old woman, and she is obliging with a whole heart. Poor family. And after that, this is the occasion that i`m gonna get embarrassed. And the thing is, I`ve got tickets for 300 bucks and must cost the same for way back, and i`ll be getting some money from my parents to get embarassed. Im looking forward to it. But yeah, we are gonna be there for a coupla days. So it must be fun.

(P.S. This is to my sister, who probably is seriously reading this. No! I am not taking the camera down there!)

phbt

Ive been reading this book called, Road To Gandolfo. Its one helluva book! Its too damn good. Its stylish, the naration is breathtaking. Its more or less as stylish as the film departed. Yeah departed was very stylish flick. I saw the movie once at home and on the guys` request went to the cinemas to watch the film. Well to say the truth, it is a movie to be watched in the theatre. You dont get the feel of the movie when you watch it at home. And the excitement starts right when Jack Nicholson voice echoes,

I don't want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me.

till the end where Matt Damon says "Okay"! The most awesome character was Dignam, played by Mark Wahlberg. Hes just a guy, going around screwing everybody bigtime. Nice movie.


The world cup going on, and after a great great debate, my parents were convinced to get the Dish TV. Through which we get all the paid channels. It isnt installed yet. And its of no use. I wanted to watch all the world cup matches in digital quality. But india must have lost the game against the minnows, bangladesh by now. Its so freaking disappointing. Seriously, the guys should get used to playing without me(wink)!Wokay, thats it for now.

Missing a life!

Its been long since i posted, and im sorry for it. Today, there wasnt any power, i went out. Was standing in my portico(atleast thats what we call it). I was staring(yeah the same ole staring!!) at the cows outside. Nothing fascinating though. I saw a coupla kida come by. They were playing something. I dint understand what it was, but apparently they were having such a great time playing it. I still dont know what it was, but i admired the excitement i saw in the kids` faces. I miss that kind of innocent happiness. I wish i am a kid again.

I have this quote, which says "theres no point being a grown up, if u cant be childish sometimes" , and the picture says this was said by Dr Who. But it is true. Somethings trigger your childish self and it is a good feeling. Ive been childish once in a while with the guys, and apparently ended up being humiliated. That doesnt bother me much. Love you guys!! (im not gay, for heaven`s sake!!) But on the whole, we do have to be childish when we want to.

2 days back i saw a movie called paruthiveeran. It was a good one. The ending was a tragedy. I might have cried if i had seen the movie at home. Excellent performance by both the actors. And a lot of things have been happening around. Ive again lost sleep and will have to try hard for it. I have to forget things and get over it. It just takes time and fortunately, i have all the time in my life. My project is completed and ready to be submitted.

Life as it is!!

What has been going on for th last week has been phenomenally un-understandable. I`m absolutely happy, but dont look happy, i love parents, but dont show it to them, I love being at home, but look as if im reluctant to get out. Honestly, I dont understand the theory of this kind of actions or rather stupidity. Theoritically, these are just the mannerisms which are changed mannually. But, believe me I tried, and especially when you dont know why you are like this, you tend to think a lot and thats what is happening to me. I dont want to get back to the days where I stare walls and get myself called insane, though it is not insanity.

The above paragraph made no sense(it does to me). But yeah here goes. Yesterday was one of the most pathetic trips in my lifetime. It was fun to be around with the guys but none the less, it was disgusting.ugh! There was a pretty good video made in the bus, where we did our trademark dialogues. That only was fun. Other than that, I hated every minute of the trip. Forgettable one.

Things that have been happening, just dont make any kind of sense to me. Just when I was sure that I was in control of everything with respect to me, something out of my control just happens. I talk to someone, to whome I never wanted to talk, I get angry on one of my very good buddies. But I still do believe it was his mistake. It was petty fight. It never meant anything serious, but he should`ve appologised rather than irritating me further. I got pissed big time and now, im not even returning his calls. Life just gets stupid as time goes by. If i just ignore him, i really dont have anyone else. But he should`ve asked sorry. and the fact that, he never asks sorry, triggers it all!

Freaking Life!

Its been a really really long time since ive posted! Apparently aving a blast! Got my 2nd review for my project done today. Went on well. But they say, the project doesnt have that much of a complexity. But who cares? The point is to get a pass. It works like this; you do a project so damn perfect with absolutely no flaws he gets through with a centum, you finish the project, but there are these flaws and stuffs, you get a 90%; you dont finish your project but you`ve given it a try, you get a 80%; if you havent done much of it at all, you get a 70%; and if u havent started it, but you have just told them what you are doing, you get 60%! So, wtf?? I`ll clear it anyways, and for the records, i should get a 90%! The project is the sadder part of my life right now.

There is this, music album which was released this week. Its called Chennai 600028. Music composer : Yuvan Shankar Raja. Its good. Not mind blowing and all, jus okay. But I`ve listened to nothing but it for quite sometime now. Basically because, the music is all about taking life easily. And yeah, thats the mantra right now. I found this awesome tagline. It goes this way, "Life is Beautiful - Terms and Conditions apply". I was flattened. It was so funny, yet makes a serious note!

Tomorrow, we are going to the so called IV(Industrial Visit). Yeah supposedly the whole class. The 1st thing that comes to the mind when I think about tommorow is "Gross"! For the 1st every time, the whole class is going and to what place?? Its a resort, called Golden Sun in the ECR! So damn stupid, jus because that was the place, where we guys once went and had the best of fun! Thats the place where p2v broke is leg on his b`day! That was fun and lot of things happened after that. We did have some outrageous fun, but that was a day to be remembered. Dont know how disgusting tommorow is going to be.Ugh!

Anyways, anything with the guys around is fun. And talking about now, Ive been reading a helluva lot of calvin and Hobbes. Calvin is getting some serious respect from me. Some of his qoutes are so damn funny that i think of it and laugh! I`ll just put up some slides which i found damn funny!






There are lots! I have the whole series from 1985 to 1995! :)

It indeed is a Wonderful Life!

Ive always went back in time and imagined myself as a kid crying my heart out for something. And believe it or not, i was literally weeping today after watching a movie called its a wonderful life. Its an old 1946 flick which came into my scanner pretty late. Easily became the best movie all times! It jus tells you that your life is worth living. There might have been a lot things which you may have done with or without your knowledge, which may have a made a difference in other people`s lives. And that difference might just have been their lives.

Its good to watch these kind of movies. They just turn out to be an eye opner sometimes. Just when you are cribbing and whining about your life being totally worthless and you are just making people worser than they are, the movie tells you how important you are and what kind of purpose you have achieved in your lifetime. Its an old saying, every person in the world have a purpose. With or without their knowledge they just live fulfilling their assigned purpose. And, I still cant believe i weeped like a child after watching this movie. I told about the film to suresh( who asked me to watch it) and we both started crying. Its funny sometimes.

Magnolia

I`ll tell you what!! Doing nothing is a lot of fun. Thats what i`ve been doing for the past 3 days. Went to Pachaikili Muthucharam on friday, hoping it would be good. Well, it was derailed taken in an extremely bad way! And moreover, I dont like these guys-cheating-on-their-wives movies. I`d rather not think nor talk about the movie.
I saw coupla more movies which are worth talking about. One is magnolia. This is a multistarrer, with most of the stars infamous. The only famous ones are Tom Cruise and Julliane Moore. It was good movie. Taken beautifully. I jus saw the movie, empty headed, and i wasnt able to understand many parts of the movie. Like, the scene where it starts raining frogs! Then i had to look up for details. That sums up how jobless I am! I found this info about the mythology of exodus 8:2. It was interesting and the thing that fascinates me is that, the director has taken the movie corresponding to the myth and hes done it in a modern way. Its a damn good movie and worth a watch.

The next movie is "The Inside Man". Well, it is a hollywood movie and it starts with our very own, Chaiyya Chaiyya song by God(Rahman). One of the most stylish movie Ive seen after V for Vendatta. Yeah here again, the dialogues matters. Clive Owen is too good and makes me jealous most of the times and my man, Denzel Washington also does a pretty good job. But for me the highlight is the song. Its a damn good mix and it merges superbly with the movie.I saw it till the end of credits jus because of the song. see? nowadays, ive got absolutely nothing to post about.

What the hell am I supposed to write now?? I really cant think of anything. Its really different now. Absolutely no worries and not a thing to whine about. Truly happy! Even the most disappointing incidents, though irrepairable are gotten over and, now, i have to think of something to feel bad about and yet I dont find any! This is totally different. There is a considerable difference after the results at home too. Dad`s all enthusiastic and all. Its me who is trying to be a bit down, or am I? What I need is, a nice freak out session for another week. I wanna have real fun. but not enough plans!!

What the hell?? next challenge im gonna face is when I join work. Its gonna take a while untill that happens. Okay!! Ive done enough thinking of what to write next!! Thats that! cya!

End of result Mania!

Yeah!!! The doomsday has arrived and the results were suddenly published. Okay!! I went to the gym, working my ass off to reduce weight. Took my phone during the break and there were 4 missed calls and 3 msgs. Good god! And one of the msg was from sriram!! It said, "U all pass!". Goddamnit. I jumped. The 1st thing is, i did not expect it today. The 2nd thing is i did not expect an all pass! The 3rd thing is i most certainly did not expect a 73%! It may seem low, but trust me, it a helluva lot, for me atleast! I called him right away to confirm. And he did confirm. Called mom and asked her too check it out.

Good day it was. Saw 2 movies. Last night, i was damn tired off the turtle walk(which deserves another post)! MY eyes begged for some rest, but i did not want the day to end! Something told me the result would come today but most of the sites said it wasnt today! So i wanted yesterday to last longer. I slept at midnight. Woke up today at noon. Watched 2 movies, my girl and much ado about nothing in sony pix. Dint care a damn about the results. Went to the gym. I have this omen thing when results are coming out. It is considered by me that, if results are out when im not home, it turns out to be good. Thats what happened last time! Guess it is nothing, the results depend on what i have written in the paper. Now, i have 2 more theory papers and a project. Im quite sure there isnt going to be any result phobia anymore! A happy farewell to the worst feeling in my life, forever!

Result Mania!!

Okay!! This is one of the 2 times of the year that Iam totally out of my conscience!
It is the time when the result are expected anytime. I`ll just give a briefing abt how the results have treated me every year.

The mania/phobia started back in 2001 during my 10th results. I was one among the 7 ppl in the school who dint pass with a distinction.I got a 79%!! I got screwed royally for that. Then it was 2003, during my 12th results. No one expected much out of me, as most of them knew i wasnt going to get much marks. An dad, he jus prayed that i should pass! Then i got 82%. That dint seem much to me. But one of the 1st time, dad congradulated me! I cud find no reason for him to congradulate me, but later i realised, he expected a mere pass from me.

Here comes the college result phobia history!

January 2004 : It was a friday afternoon. Bunked college and had come home! This guy called p2v called me. He said results were out. He usually was the last man i could trust. I dint believe it, but then realised it was true. He saw my results and he did say that i cleared all the papers and i owed him a treat. I got 75% in the 1st semester. After that, there was no turning back.

August 2004 : It was a saturday evening, me, anush(a pal from my bus), kk(karthik) and vimal(one of my seniors) had gone to the besant nagar beach, just to have fun. And we did have fun! and on my way back, i got the news that results were out. I had got an instant shaker running in my stomache, and the process continues ever after. I stopped half way, caught up with a friend, and saw the results in a stupid browsing center. I had flunked in 1 paper. It was maths II!! It looked as if i had lost a lot in my life. I cried for hours and apologised a million times to my parents, who were in the us!! Then i dont know how, i moved on.

February 2005 : The months of, aug,sept,oct and nov of 2004, i was all by myself and you could imagine how i wudve prepared! I wrote the exams with a wierd gut. But the result was obvious. I had cleared the old maths II paper and now there was the maths III paper!! I dint expect to flunk in that stupid paper, though i expected to flunk in some other paper. But this was shitty.My parents were here when the result came and got royally screwed in the arse! Big time!! Again, I still do not understand, how i got over it.

July 2005 : This time, i was nurtured under the watchful eyes of my PARENTS! I did study before the exams, and i cleared all the papers except the good ole maths III. But dint get screwed big time. This was because, i had already told my folks that i wud flunk in that subject. I dint have to get over anything! Just went on!

February 2006 : A few days after kirthi left chennai. The squarebrothers.com had posted that the results will be published that night 7pm. It was extended to 9pm. Finally it was released near midnight. I was shocked! I was fairly confident that i will clear the maths III. But they had put a horrifying 8 out 80! I was totally pissed. But again, got royally screwed. Worst days of my life. But i got over it when i concentrated on something else. But i was too damned pissed and my placement depended on it!Everyone at home were upset. I did not know what i would do with my future, nor did my dad. The most horrifying 5 months, untill...

5th,August 2006 : The results of my 6th semester was released, when i was taking arun and jai for a treat.Ironically it was the next day of my placement. It was a heavenly feeling. It was after 2 years that i saw a result which had an all pass sheet for me. I was thrilled, overwhelmed by the sudden success. I sometimes acted too smart and sometimes too dumb. And wrote the 7th semester exams.

I rally cant explain how i wrote it. I cant say i did it bad, but nor can i say im 100% confident. But i wish, or hope, i clear all the papers. The shaker has already started running in my stomache.

The Pursuit Of Happyness!

This was a beautiful movie! It is about a guy called Chris Gardner, who later became a big time stock broker. Now, this movie`s got Will Smith. I`ve been a big fan of his, especially after watching Fresh Prince of Belair. The guy was hilarious in that show, and he does a contrasting role in this movie. He has played the role beautifully. The movie was beautifully taken and Will Smith`s narration was tremendous. Especially when he says, "This is the part of my life, I call happiness", a tear literally runs through your cheeks. My kind of movie, and has all the ingredients for the oscars.

The other movie which i saw was, The Departed. The movie was good, Awesome show by Jack Nicholson, Leonardo Di Caprio and Matt Damon. Nicely taken, Good screenplay! But it reminded me of the tamil movie Kuruthipunal! It must be ecstatic of me to compare a tamil movie with an oscar nominated movie. The 2 movies have nothing much in common. But, the story is somewhat similar. The police puts a rat in the bad guy`s empire and the bad guys a rat in the police empire. Thats what both the movie has. But, what happens in the 2 movies is totally a different story! They have nothing in common. Nice watchable movie, departed, stylish, but lacks a little bit of oscar substance.

So Near Yet So Far!

The topic absolutely makes no sense! But I was thinking of a lot of things that corresponds to that lil saying. I was waiting on my bike in the middle of a traffic jam.Had to go to a medical shop. It was abput 100 yards, but i cudnt go when i wanted to. See? that constitutes to "So Near Yet So Far!". Typically me aint it? Absolutely making no sense. To be honest, I`ve been thinking a lot of stuffs which constitutes the same thing.

Had a coupla exams today at college, It was so funny! It made absolutely no sense, for us to avoid the 150 bucks fine, we had to write the exams. Noe the new rule is that, if we get to fail we get to pay a fine of 100bucks. Thats absurdly funny! It is totally my wish to pass or fail in my exam. But, in our case, there is an understanding between the good staffs and us. They promised us, "write something in the paper, we`ll pass you, and you dont have to pay the fine" Goddamnit! We are too lucky! Every college should have good staffs like these to break the stupid rules that the college makes!

Its been quite a while since i`ve posted. Well, i actually was kind of busy. The day after the party, i slept all day.The next day that is on wednesday, we left for this place called pennadam, for a marriage. It was my cousin`s marriage. I really dont know her much, but had to go, coz I was the spare driver. It was my uncle who drove most of the time. Damn he was fast!! You shud see the look on dad`s face! And the better side is, I touched a 120 and dad dint say a word.

And about the party, monday night, it was fun. A whole lot of people were there. Had a nice swim, had pretty okay food and listened to music. And we talked, talked, talked and talked! Even after going to bed, me and suresh were blabbering for half an hour. Got up the next morning, had a great swim, tanned ourselves in the morning sun and listened to Rahman for 2 hours! Then we left, came back home and slept for the whole day.

Then about the trip to pennadam. I stayed in a house, typically of the village type. It was beautiful. And then the marriage. I really felt a pity for them, the couple. They dint even talk to each other. The girl(my cousin), looked like she seriously needed a shoulder to lie down and cry on. Poor female! And no one recognised me! Absolutely no one! I was like the dude of the village!

Then we went to this place called, vadalur. There was some carnival and it was the anniversary of a guy called Ramalinga Adigalar. I usually am not fascinated by going to temples on speacial days and worshipping them. But this guy, he has done nothing, except writing poems and doing yoga. This man lived 200 years ago and he is said to have vanished in thin air. And for this man, and on his death anniversary, there are literally lakhs of people coming to give their respect to him. What we apparently see is a burning camphor through a translucent glass. And believe me, there were atleat 1 lakh people witnessing it. I was really fascinated. I wish I cud go next year.

Today, we happened to go to a symposium at anna university. Its called abacus 2007. I laid my feet on all the competitions, but i did wat i do best! I put mockai! If you dont know what that means, its just pathetic jokes(pjs). Me and ma buddy, suresh showed our skills all over the prelims question paper and we were the 1st among the finalists! For an example, our team name was "Masala Dahi Aloo Sev Pani Puri"!! They had to announce it on stage! We have our finals tomoro, LOL! Its gonna be fun!

15 Park Avenue

Well, One good thing that sony pix, the one movie channel that comes for free, does is, put good indian made english films. They premiered this 15 park avenue movie tonight and it was good. When it got released in chennai at the sathyam cinemas, some people told me it wasnt good. People said they regreted to have paid for this particular movie.But I say its a good movie and worth a watch. Im someone who is used to watch slow movies and this one is quite slow.

The story is about, a schizophrenic girl, who lives in her dillusions and has undergone terrible experiences in her life. Its about her short-lived love life, and how it makes such an impact on her life ever after. The film was well taken and Rahul Bose does an excellent job. I have seen this Aparna sen`s film called Mr & Mrs Iyer long back and it was one of the films i loved watching as an amatuer movie watcher(if i can call myself a movie watcher now!!).It had the same pair, konkana sen and rahul bose and evidently rahul bose is one man im extremely jealous of. He is a director, an actor who acts off-beat films, he`s a business man, he is a rugby player, he is a diplomat and what not!

We have this super cool party tomorrow at Zubair`s(a good friend of mine) farm house. Its gonna be fun! 20 of our class guys are comin and theres a swimming pool thats waiting to get dirty!! Its gonna be hilarious. Will post as soon as im back day after tomoro morning.Till then, party on!!

Nice one!

I found this in another blog... it was damn good...

Study this small story,
Hope that makes a BIG change in YOU


Professor began his class by holding up a glass with some water in it.
He held it up for all to see & asked the students
“How much do you think this glass weighs?”
'50gms!' .... '100gms!' .....'125gms'> ..the students answered.
“I really don't know unless I weigh it,” said the professor,
“but, my questionis:
What would happen if I held it up like this for a few minutes?”
'Nothing' …..the students said.
'Ok what would happen if I held it up like this for an hour?'
the professor asked.
'Your arm would begin to ache' said one of the student
“You're right, now what would happen if I held it for a day?”
“Your arm could go numb, you might have severe muscle stress
& paralysis &have to go to hospital for sure!”
….. ventured another student & all the students laughed
“Very good.
But during all this, did the weight of the glass change?”
asked the professor.
'No‘…. Was the answer.
“Then what caused the arm ache & the muscle stress?”
The students were puzzled.
“What should I do now to come out of pain?” asked professor again.
“Put the glass down!” said one of the students
“Exactly!” said the professor.
Life's problems are something like this.
Hold it for a few minutes in your head & they seem OK.
Think of them for a long time & they begin to ache.
Hold it even longer & they begin to paralyze you.
You will not be able to doanything.
It's important to think of the challenges or problems in your life,
but EVEN MORE IMPORTANT is
to ‘PUT THEM DOWN' at the end of every day beforeYou go to sleep.
That way, you are not stressed,
you wake up every day fresh &strong & canhandle any issue,
any challenge that comes your way!
So, When you leave office today,
Remember friend to'PUT THE GLASS DOWN TODAY! '

Antwone Fisher

That is the name of the movie, and the reason for which im writing this post. A friend of mine gave me this dvd which had 5 denzel washington movies. Ive just seen 3 of them, the manchurian candidate, the training day and this Antwone fisher. Its based on Antwone Fisher, a young navy man, is forced to see a psychiatrist after a violent outburst against a fellow crewman. During the course of treatment a painful past is revealed and a new hope begins. Thats the plot outline. I just found out, it was directed by denzel washington. Beautiful movie and well made too.

There wasnt much of a response for the previous post!hmmm.. OK! Now, I`ve achieved the realisation of the reality of life, and it took me 4, 25km drives! Yes! The distance I travel to my college. Its a nice, smooth and long highway and I think a lot during that drive. And something which was running in my mind for the past 2 days were cleared! Clearly, taking life in a positive sense, can result in wonders. My project 1st review just got over yesterday. We were prepared moderately and we said something to the panel! They tried asking us questions, but the ball was on our court! They absolutely had no idea what we were talkin about.

Ive been posting some short posts for the past week and it is going to continue. Im really bored at home and im quite desperate to get out every single day. And now, im working out! Im going to the aerobics classes. Finally! Im quite sure, i wont work out unless I pay for it! And its 650 bucks a month! Now, that doesnt matter much! What matters is, every single muscle in my body aches. Some of them, i`ve never known those parts even had muscles! Thats my success story for the time being.

How does it feel when you lost something forever in your life? Something which you have valued so much..

I need answers!!

Bloody Sunday!!

Yeah right!! I did download a movie called bloody sunday, but thats not wat im gonna talk abt! Its today, such a bad day! The most unexpected things happen on sundays. People who never bothers to talk to me, talks; Things i never expected to happen happens. Just another, bloody pathetic day. There are somethings which you dont want to happen and deep within you wud want it to happen. It would just be great, if those things are just permanent.

The Sounds of Silence

Well, I know im late. I saw a movie called graduate a coupla days back. Its a dustin hoffman movie and it was okay. But what caught me were the 2 sound tracks of the movie. One song is the sounds of silence. I jus loved the lyrics of the song. The lyrics goes this way

Hello darkness, my old friend,
I've come to talk with you again,
Because a vision softly creeping,
Left its seeds while I was sleeping,
And the vision that was planted in my brain
Still remains
Within the sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone,
'Neath the halo of a street lamp,
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of
a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence.

And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more.
People talking without speaking,
People hearing without listening,
People writing songs that voices never share
And no one deared
Disturb the sound of silence.

"Fools" said I,"You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows.
Hear my words that I might teach you,
Take my arms that I might reach you."
But my words like silent raindrops fell,
And echoed
In the wells of silence

And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made.
And the sign flashed out its warning,
In the words that it was forming.
And the signs said, The words of the prophets
are written on the subway walls
And tenement halls.
And whisper'd in the sounds of silence.

Isnt that just beautiful? I just loved the song and now im adicted to it.

The other song of the track was scarborough fair. The genre is so damn soothing and beautiful. I loved that song too. And the 1st 4 lines goes this way.

Are you going to the scarborough fair
Parsley,sage, rosemary and thyme
remember me to those who is there
she once was a true love of mine

Simply beautiful aint it?Its by 2 guys called simon and garfunkel. They are mostly not alive now. But these songs are jus mind blowing!!

Mankind!!

For the past 20 years, i`ve grown to be, nothing but 75 kgs of fat! Lot of people wanted me to be a lot of things. I`ve certainly not made their thought, come true(gee are those the right words?). Okay, Ive been around a lot of people and I think 20yrs of life is enuf to say this! People do change. They aint the way they once were. I change characters myself. Well the worst part is, when you find out they arent the way you thought they were. Am i making any point here(damn!! im too bad at this!!)? The basic thing is, people around me, never turn out to be the way, I think they were. Now, that hurts. Okay, Im kinda pissed at something, which I cannot tell for sure.

Does this trust thing happen to everyone? You know, you trust someone from the bottom of your heart and they do something which you have asked them not to do, how much ever damage that directly creates to you, how would you feel? I sure do feel bad. WTF? I live for me, why should i be worried about others? I can say that, but cant do that. I dont mean to say im a social worker. Im jus saying, I dont want to put the people who have seen me grow all these years, in embarassment. And I dont want to be the source of any problem thats created in the family. Though i have been, a lot of times, believe me ive felt guilty for each and every incident.

Cant think of anything else... goodbye!!

Jobless...

Its the 3rd day in a row, that im staying home doing nothing. Bored to the extent that i sit and watch sun tv! I cant find a topic to post. The bsnl has introduced the faster internet, upto 2mbps. So doin some downloading. Downloaded one movie today. Its called, little miss sunshine. I should say, BEAuuutiful movie! Its about, how losing in one thing doesnt make the person a loser. Nicely taken and has a tint of good comedy, though it is rated as comedy. The feeling of downloading a movie and watching is very good. But i have to stay awake till 2am everyday rather night, to switch on the download. Gee, that sucks!

Yesterday was pongal/sankranti. Big deal! The festive mood was in the air. New movies in tamil channels. And, not to mention the awesome food. Ate nicely!! And today, is maatu pongal. Got a lot of birthday wishes since morning. Now, what did I do today; woke up by 10 in the morning, ate breakfast, saw tv, ate lunch, saw the movie and now sitting and blogging. Wasnt that productive?

Talking about festivals, I sure do think that, the families after 10 years aint gonna celebrate no festivals! Yeah, yeasterday, mom tried to wake me up and i successfully got up by 9! Me and her, got a sugarcane, which no one is gonna eat. She did some real good pongal and we ate. And not to forget, we did the "pooja". Now, it aint a girls name(blabber)! I used to, enthusiastically yell "pongalo pongal" when the rice boils and come out, way back, 15 years ago. And now, i dint even see it boil!! Things do change and, damn!! changes are happenning pretty fast!

jaage hain...

Obviously, jaage hain is the best song in the guru album.And it sounds all through the film. Yeah!! I saw the film and got my review of it!! Well here goes... I dint understand it.Well, forgive me, i dont know hindi and to add to the misery, abishek bachhan dint know english in the movie! Well, the performance is good. Okay!! they all were awesome!! Vidya balan gorgeous!! Madhavan cool( though i dont forgive him for the smooch)!! Abhishek... too good.Hes put on tummy to act in the older role.But thats no big deal. I can do that in like a week! And ash, i liked the older ash!! she looked more original in the older role!!And Oh My God!! Rajiv menon!! I swear to god, i`ve never seen such beautiful work in an indian movie. I got glued to the screen lot of times and the reason is Rajiv!!

Dad has been sick for a week and hes been in and out of the hospital and im glad i cud be of some help. Nothing much, i jus drove him around. Today, it just confirmed that there is nothing serious. Thank god. As Im saying that, i got a thumbs down for going for a movie!! Thats dad.

He never says NO! But he never says YES! He talks as if im having a hard time goin out. Yeah!! I got a job and ive got all the freedom i want!! I can say so! He doesnt control me and all, but it really is hard to ignore him and go ahead with my plans. Thats the way ive been raised. Ive been told to keep my parents as happy as i can by god knows who!!.Its just that as i grew, Ive seen more of them as unhappy people. Keeping them happy, certainly wasnt possible by me studying. So now and then or most of the time, when dad doesnt stop talking after me summoning the petition to go out, i drop the plans. But sometimes, i overrun those cribs and i end up feeling guilty the whole time!

Who Am i gonna do it for? I love my family and absolutely no one else! Love you ma and pa.

A Bundle of thoughts!

I finally did IT!! Its not what you think, but I like the way you think! Okay, i finally got the heart and enlightment to delete my orkut account. Its really hard, to ignore or avoid all the public requests for the profile to stay. But i did it. Okay, now i`ve lost my only mode of contact, with a lot of people. But I dont regret it. I feel relieved that, i wont be having anything to be tempted on to go into my orkut account. Seriously, am i not blabbering? Im really sorry, somethings have been on the busy mind, i cant concentrate!

The other day, just before going to sabari mala, i was sitting and wondering, what a useless bum i have been! Then, suddenly, there is a hype abt me getting a tellable score in cat. Everything changes. My mom talks like im surely gonna be doing the mba. See how things change in a week? I am totally useless on the 1st day of the week, and im an mba graduate to be on the last! It really feels wierd.too much sugar in the coffee, is not supposed to taste good(though i like it. its a personal delicacy(wink)). The same way, for the past 4 months, nothing has gone wrong. Wierd aint it?

Me and my pal senthil have enrolled for classes, in a company who do projects for the students in the final year. They make it sound logical. They are actually selling projects, but they make it up by taking classes for students who are getting them. That way, we dont do the projects with zero knowledge. You know what I mean, we have only some knowledge of it.This is getting very technical.

Off-late ive been watching a lot of fresh prince of bel air; Will Smith is good. Argh!! He`s damn good. All those fat jokes and short jokes. If you get ur hands on it, jus watch it. Its good. And beware it will grow into you!! You know wat im saying?

Common... Just gimme a hug!!

I`ve always argued with mom, how a hug makes you feel better. Its all in the succession of munna bhai method. Jus hug and make people feel better.I jus was browsing the other day and came accross this video in a site called free hugs. Theres a video in it and its good, as in i liked it.

The other highlight of this week is, i saw my cat score as soon as i came back from the trip.I was overwhelmed to see, the score. It was funny though. I got a 83.53%ile. Which is obviously not good, but thankfully not that bad. The whole point is that i cared a damn about the exam and look at the freaking results!! A good friend of mine, used all of his study holidays to prepare for this cat(as if i studied during the hols) and scored less than me. God!! I must be a genius(wink). Just imagining, how pissed he must be! Anyways, sorry buddy, i dint mean to hurt you(wink)! Anyways, it kind of too late now for doing mba. I feel its a bit foolish to let go of the job and go study again. And seriously, studying is surely not one of the things that i do best! Anyways, my parents are really interested in me doing mba right away. But theres serious thinking involved.

On the other hand, my project, with my buddy senthil, is still in stake. We havent decided on anything and we are way behind schedule! God save us. And the most pathetic thing is we are paying for the project(phew).Thats it for now!

Found It Finally...

Yup!!I found the place where i can forget everything i wanna forget!!It is the good ole sabari malai!! It was a tremendous trip and i was accompanied by my pal arun. He being a debutant was good. He did really well in walking and of course, he managed the ridiculous nature calls.I in the course of time have learnt to manage. Stupid things apart; now that ive found the ultimate place, it not possible for me to go there when i feel bad. For that matter, i have to walk 48kms all the way through 3-4 mountains to see the god(which is secondary) and have a peace of mind.So have to find a place somewhere near. Still on the quest!! ;)

And about the trip, The path through vandi periyar was the highlight. The best easily!!The Lord of the rings could have been shot here than in new zealand. So beautiful.It is only during this one month that people are allowed through this path. Its damn beautiful; i wish i had an slr cam. Okay! thats it for now.

End of Days!!

Its 30th and tomoro at midnite another stupendous year comes to an end. The 31st, Arun`s b`day, the occasion which is celebrated every year with a festive mood. This time, i`d rather sit home. I dont know why i feel that way, but, i dont wanna be a part of any new year celebrations anywhere. Yeah!! One reason is, im wearing the "malai" and im not supposed to do a lot of stuffs. So now postponing all the parties after the 7th, when im back after the trip to sabari malai. But I hardly understand my sudden change of attitude towards new year eve parties.

Today, me and arun had some talking, i told him i was glad the year was ending. He asked me why, i said it was a bad year. Now that makes me wonder, i was selected for a job, i cleared the one arrear which i ever had, and ive spent a lot of money on myself!! The year wasnt supposed to be a bad one, but everything came to me all of a sudden. I was happy for a minimum number of days of the year. Otherwise, it was a bad bad bad forgettable year. Of course, every fogettabe thing cannot be forgotten. Arun told me the same thing. He said, it was a damn good year for me. Look at what im destined to?? Im not celebrating even when im kind of successfull. Like they always say, if you get one you obviously lose another.

Now, I really really want 2007 to be a memorable year. I want to do a lot of stuffs which i may never do in my life time. You know, i really want to have fun in the final semester. I will try my best to forget 2006. Im going to look forward. Im going to party, im going to hookah and hopefully im goin to spend a lot of money. You know the last 6 months in which im totally going to be depending on my dad. Obviously, i need my dad and mom for the rest of my life. But i wish i take care of them. Thats supposed to be in another post. I love my family and friends and no one else in the world. Only my sis, reads all these crap, and an obsessed moron, me, read it to make sure i have written the readable stuff. excuse me, Am i psychic?

cough cough... Kill me!!

Yeah!! For the past 4 to 5 days ive been coughing like a dog, dont mind to imagine how dogs cough!!Anyways, it feels like shit, when you have to cough all the time. My trachea is all hurt and i suppose it must be bleeding now, off the coughs!(cough)ts been some time since ive posted, the reason, one, i was off to chidambaram and two, i din find an appropriate topic(as if i got one now!!!!).Okay, to talk about chidambaram, i have to admit, i din do wat i wanted to do. I did spend some time at the temple, but it was too crowded. Had some okay time, watching the channels on tv, which we dont get here in chennai. Then sat in my cousins ice cream shop, for sometime. Time just flew by.Relatives asking me to eat every hour.That is what we call, anbu thollai!

Okay, a useless post it is alright!Anyways, too bad, nothing much happened in chidambaram for me to write here.I love the place and the temple. But, i went there on another mission, to think, to realise my value, to find myself and get myself on the road from no where.I guess i havent succeeded much on that. But, this dog will surely have its day! I`ll be waiting.It was always my dream to find a place where i can go when i feel low. Im in search of that place.Chidambaram natraja temple was a trial worth it.

ciao!!

As said earlier, im leaving for chidambaram tonight. Goin to reinvent myself. And i got my new goggles today. Its a fast track one and cost me a fortune. Actually cost my dad a fortune. And i love it. I got my contacts coupla days back and glad that its settled in my eye pretty well.Im jus loving today. For the first time, i cud see myself clearly with goggles on, into the mirror. It doesnt sound exciting! But, it sure is for a guy who cudnt have a good vision from kindergarden.Thats exageration!! I wore glasses only by 7!! Okay, now i feel all excited.Im leaving to chidambaram, and im all geared up.

Filled my phone with a lot of music.Took 3 books!! One is Night Bloom by herbert lieberman, the next is The lost Don by Mario Puzo(Damn!! hes too good!!)and The monk Who sold his ferarri!! Theres a lot of reading to be done out there.I was planning to take my laptop, but i ended up against it.Gonna hit the road tonight, obviously in a bus!! Dad doesnt allow me to even take a ride in his car.Yeah, the last time we went to chidambaram, and i was driving, he dint lean back a second and relax. Its better when he drives than, getting screwed up in the head by letting me drive.I keep away from asking nowadays!! Ooops!! shifting topics again. Okay!! Im off guys!! see ya`ll in a week!! tata!!

Worth it??

I was reading some blog and i founs this "How much is my blog worth" tag.and her blog was worth for like around 1168$.I was excited and i tried doing that for this blog.There it came, "Your blog is worth 0.00$" in bold.
Who cares?? Im writing all this stuff for my own satisfaction.Im totally happy about it.

Hail Bharathi!!

I have this tendancy of digging up old songs and listenin to them. Sutrum vizhi was one of them. I have been going around asking people if they knew the song. I was shocked!! Every single person said the song was, strum vizhi chudare from ghajini!!
omg!! This is a Bharathiyar song and with Rahman`s music. I used to love it, when it was out. Then forgot about the song. Always happens! Then, i found this song, ironically on Bharathiyar`s birthday. It was awesome. I din feel the lyrics before. But it made an impact on me this time. Ive been constantly humming this song. I listen to it atleast 20 times a day, and i (hopelessly) sing along every single time!

Since then, Ive been looking for Bharathi`s songs and listening to them. Wow, the man did do a great job. It is the beauty he incurs in every word of his poems. Ive become his fan and believe me, Jus read his song and you`ll feel it.

Sigh!! Its finally over!!

Its 2:30 in the afternoon, had a bath and lunch. Sittin in front of the computer, as usual, listening to tere bina from guru, pathetically humming along.Wait a minute!! Im vetti again!! Yipee!! Yup, it got over today, yeah im talkin about the exams. Finally(sigh)!! The exams were goin on like forever.The day of results is another story.But now, im retaining my vetti status.

Right!! Now people wont believe im vetti. Coz i have left orkut.Ive never thought of leaving it.But, got enlightened one day.But that doesnt mean im not vetti. Im absolutely vetti! Have some TV series from friend, gonna be watchin that. And as I said, goin to chidambaram, for 10 days.I am gonna be gettin contact lenses in a coupla days, hopefully.Goin to watch a movie today(veyil).I believe it gonna be a good movie.
Thats it, jus wrote for the sake of writing. chow.

Im Happy!!

Well, its really been a while since i said that. Yeah about a decade i guess!! Ive never really, have accepted the way life has for me.Ive never been happy with wat i have.Thats bad and i jus realised it.It is pretty late. All through the blog ive jus expressed myself like a depressed moron, who has his own square in life and who never wanted to come out of it.Its gonna change. I jus realised, time to think and solidarity helped a lot. Exams have been haunting me all this while.When the exams are over, im gonna run,away from this place;to chidambaram.Thats my native place.Ive always refused to go there with my folks, but inside i love the place.Got a temple which is of my knowledge the best.

Its got space.I can sit down and breathe-fresh and good air.I am gonna spend some time in that temple.Thats why im going.Ive not all of a sudden shanged into a spiritual kind and all.I jus love walkin around the temple,sittin there,looking at lives and me being happy.Thats the basic aim for every individual aint it?-to be happy.And there, i look at lives, not people.After a long time, im now very happy and I really dont wanna lose it.The past has or has not been too good for me.Ive actually never known if the life has been good to me.I dont care about the future.And I love the present.Good to be happy!

God Loved Us!!!

God,yeah God, painted a beautiful piece of a huge canvas. He gave the backround colour of the painting as black. Guess, he always liked brighter things on a darker backround. Yeah, me and God, think the same way(wink). He wanted to make his painting more and more beautiful. So he took his brush and started adding elements which he though were necessary and made the painting look good. He drew stuffs of all shapes. But he loved the shape of a circle. He drew a lot of them. He names the whole lot "stars".He painted a beautiful yellow star. Around it there were smaller circles. Whe first one was whitish, and he did not like it. The second one was orange, and he wanted to name it after his little daughter.The third was the one which he felt was his masterpiece. He used the colours which he never used. They were blue and brown of all shades.3/4th of the circle was blue and 1/4th was brown.And later he added green.The one which he probably would never use. This little circle was what which made him satisfied.Then he made several cirles and stars.But everytime his mind made him to return to the blue little cirle.

Then, he started drawing dots on the blue circle.They were of, white,black and brown dots.He created a whole bunch of dots on the circle.Then one day, when he saw his painting there more number of dots.Little did he know at that time, that these dots get life and start calling themselves, "people".For that matter, they named him God,they named his best star as sun and they even named his daughter venus!!Then these dots created something called a calender and they started following something called time.Now, the most beautiful painting by the God himself was taken over by the dots which he introduced on it. These dots dominated a whole lot.The God did not like it.Once in a while he added extra blue to it, or yellow or gave a gentle tap on places on the circle which he did not like!Yes I am talking about, tsunamis,volcanos and earthquakes.(earthlings cant even understand these things!!).

Yeah,this is a stupid post.But this is how i feel when i look for my place in the world.I first look for where I stand in my city, then my state, then the country, then the world, then the universe.Then I realise, Im jus a small brown dot which God dint intend to draw.Yeah, Shakespear told it right.

We indeed, are all actors and we are acting on a stage called earth.

And love plays a very important role.The love that, parents have for their children, the love that the child has for his mother.These charecters dominate. I do believe that God exists. But, i dont believe if hes still responsible for the things that are happening. Remember, we are just dots in the eyes of God and we cannot ask him for help, for he cant help.And as I said, choose the role to be played in this huge drama and thats the way the so called life is. Hmph!! stupid thinking na?? yeah... I quit!!

Guru - Good Work!!

Guru audio released yesterday, and ive done nothing but listening to it all day(and night).Its great.And me being a very very big fan of Rahman, its a great feeling to listen to his new creations.Its simply awesome.listing the songs and their review.

barso re - sung by shreya ghoshal.reminds me of konjum mainakale from kandukondein... beautiful song!
tere bina - excellent, and god himself has sung it.I loved it the 1st time i listened to it.
Ek Lo Ek Muft - Different to the core.and its awesome.
Mayya - It gets better everytime you listen to it.
Ay Hairathe - Hariharan used perfectly.Beautiful.
Baaze laga - Udit narayan, his magical voice and yeah beautiful ofcourse.
Jaage Hain - This is the song on which i lost my consciousness and got mesmerised listening to it.Just awesome!!

The Pink Panther

A very very hilarious movie.This I happened to watch only now, which is a bit late. But steve martin at his best!One of the best comedies. He has this french accent, which in itself is hilarious. He tries learning american accent english, thats the best part.
I simply enjoyed the movie.Smiling all the way!!

My Precious!!

Yeah!! Life is super!!Its the most precious thing and every single person has to live it up. Yeah all that crap is not crap and is pretty much true.But, after a real bad day, when i sit back and think why life sucks such a big time, i start hating it. You tend look around, the indifference is easily visible. And I hate it. I tend to think, why does this happen to me. Then once during a conversation with a friend, i realised, everyone have there problems. Not that I did not know, i just realised it. 3 people from my college, got detained becoz of attendance. They have their own problems, obviously.

I learn the same thing almost everyday, we just have to get over the various problems. But when it comes to forgetting something which you cant get, it is real hard, but possible. Today, my friend sent me a link, saying this is how I will be after a few years of work. It was funny though, but it was the truth.I really have to do something for not being obese in the future. That is one of the problems. Life really sux when we have problems, but you know, the usual crap which is not really crap. I really wish, i lead a life without problems which is impossible.For what I am today, ive faced quite a lot of problems. But of what I am today, Im sure i`ll face a lot more. You know i get this flow through my fingers, typing, shifting from one topic with other. Being pissed off really sucks!! Sorry for the horrible musings!

Terrace-trial days!!

For the past 2 days, ive been on the terrace for abt 6-7hrs a day. Theres basically nothing to do there.Have to do one of these; study(come on be serious),love nature(now thats what im talkin about),and some serious thinking(no comments).Okay, i started loving the smallest, even the tiniest things about nature.eg - dragon flies, the leaves of our gulmohor trees,the sky and the sun.And for the past 2 days i`ve been gifted with a beautiful view of the sunset.Never thought, sunset would be so beautiful from my terrace.I wish i had an SLR camera!When i look up onto the sky, i see clouds, and i see the blue emptiness of the sky between the clouds and i wished i flew up there.It was lovely.

And you have no idea what comes into your mind when you are in a terrace.I look up on all the people in the distance, and i wished i had a sniper to shoot at all the people whom i dint like, eventhough i din know most of them.I wish i had the sniper.I could see my school from the terrace, and im pretty sure i could snipe into the classes.If i did have a sniper im sure i`d blow off the head of the little mean stupid math teacher`s awfully dyed head!I wish!(cruel wink)But times just runs by when you are fantasizing all this.And at times, is fun.

The Incredible Bulk

Im really thankful, i can see my feet when i stand straight and look at my feet.I`ve jus got "Growing Fat" syndrome.I was already fat, but it now is worse.Have to excersise and im too lazy for that. Tryin hard to cut out on food, unsuccessfully.And study holidays; im forbidden to go out and im putting weight, like the iron powder sticking to the magnet.And the sad thing is, for me, it seems irreversible.I take a oath right here.

I will eat 2 meals a day
I will walk initially and later on run every morning.
I will not eat junk food.

I hope that`ll do.

Share(auto) Burden!!

Jus a small incident; me and a friend of mine were goin somewhere by bike. My friend was driving, not rash,not too fast, but pretty decently.We were goin on the Arcot road, the infamous but extremely over populated road. There are services of share autos which carry passengers from porur to vadapalani. Its pretty cheap and lot of people prefer it. So when my friend was driving, a share auto jus took a cut and ive never seen so violent a driving before.I cursed the driver.There were atleast 10 people in the auto and with them, he was driving like that.He never bothered, he din care if he had put a scratch on a merc.He was fast, or atleast trying to be.I said loudly so that he could hear, "எப்படி போரான் பார்".He turned back, managed a stare, by that time he was about to damage another car. I was pissed at him and we moved on.

A few days later, I was coming back from college, and all the buses were crowded, too lazy to stand or to hang on the footboard of the bus, i decided to get into a share auto.I was the 1st to get in, so got a place in the cushion seat.Then in a matter of time, the auto was filled. Then he started.I dint bother to see how he was driving.I sat, looking at things on the way.I dint care if he was goin slow or fast.He was goin slow, but i had all the time of my life. Then as i stared out, i thought.Two days back, one of these drivers earned a curse from me and now im thankful to him, coz i could reach home a bit more comfortable and earlier than a bus. But then i realised. Not me, We, all of us have a mentality that we dont have to bother about a social disruption unless we are directly associated with it. Can anyone say they dont curse the share auto guys on road when you drive?? And the same time, you dont bother about other cars, who are affected, especially when you are travelling in it.

This is just an example.Most of us dont bother about what we do, when we are directly involved in the crisis and we do the mistake what others do.And we have the tendacy to curse people who commit the same mistake which we may do if we were in the same situation.People dont want their policemen to get bribes.But the ones who think that way, tend to give away a certain amount of money when they are in trouble.It works the same way everywhere, especially where we think there are serious crime going on.It is funny when I realise, ive been cursing the govt while the mistake actually starts from me.I will surely try to ignore those mistakes, for example, if im caught by a traffic police, here after i will volunteer to pay the fine in the court with a proper reciept.And I will not get into a share auto if it has more people than it is allowed to have!!

ஒரு நாள் ஒரு பொழுது்

என்னைச் சுற்றி ஒரு கூட்டம் சிரிக்கின்ற போதும்
உன்னை பற்றி என் உதடு ஓயாமல் பேசும்

For people who dont know தமிழ், im really very sorry! These are a coupla lines from a song which had affected me recently.Its a song from an old movie, and the music is by Rahman(GOD).Its from a movie called அந்திமந்தாரை directed my barathiraja. I have no idea about the film,but the songs are stunning.Especially the above song!

Beau Pluie 2

Been off for the past 4 days!!Sorry if u missed me ;)!!!Anyway, on monday,we were asked to come to college, and it looked as though it was onna rain.I got the help of a friend and reached college!Tuesday, the uncertainity of rain was quite obvious.I had gone to college by bike.The road was good and the scenary was beautiful!I drove in the high 60`s and reached college on time as well.Then from college, me and some the guys had gone,jus out of the college for lunch.There in began!It started off with a drizzle.I had carried a jacket(thanks to dad`s instincts)!I wore it and was waiting for the plan to be furnished.We then came back to college to pick up another friend.A session of a huge downpour was already over.On reaching college, the guys decided to go to KFC!Okay! Nice place, good chicken, but we never seem to get bored of it!!It was drizzling quite heavily then.I decided against goin, jus coz i had to drive the bike!

The college got over but around 3:30 and it had never stopped raining till then!I had hoped that it would stop in a matter of time!Went tothe bike, and when i realised the drizzle was a bit lighter, i started my journey home!My helmet was soaked and I couldn`t wear it.The climate was cold, the sky was beautiful and there was water all over.I liked it, its hard to find this kinda weather in this part of the country! I wore the irresistant jacket, with the hood on, and started my quest back home. It was good driving for the 1st 2kms.The only problem i had was that my glasses get drenched and i could hardly see anything.It was real fun, till i reached the bypass road.Its a good road with some eye-catching scenaries on the way.

As I entered the road, a gust of very cold breeze(atleast i felt that cold) hit me! At that point, i realised, it wasnt goin to be easy.As i drove, the rain got heavier.It felt like, people who hate me were throwing small stones onto my face.Then i tied a piece of cloth around my face.It felt better.With the numbness in my body, i drove towards eternity, home.Visibility was still a problem.But I could manage.That was the first time i ever drove at high 30`s and low 40`s! I reached home, without a part of my body not wet, and with numbness in my fingers which lasted almost forever. But still I loved the rain.I still believe, rain is the most beautiful creation of god, after us, the humans. I had never regretted getting wet, but the things which get spoilt is always an issue.That day nothing got damaged and i loved it!

Stupid Everything

I`ve kinda made y`al think im a starer!Im a thinker to be precise!Ive been goin through a lot lately.And ive been trying to occupy myself with a responsibility provided by my sis.But unfortunately unsuccessful.I`ll try to put in more time and sincerity!!And yeah Ive been through stupidity too!To start with, its my stupid study holidays and the stupid "me",am,watching the stupid idiot box(TV)all the stupid day.It indeed was a stupid day as everything i did was stupid!I literally was stupidity personifiead :).
There was a stupid insurance agent(he really wasnt stupid, i was too stupid to understand anything he said),and my dad invested a jealous 5 lakhs in lic! I really dont understand the stupid concept.Why put all the money in insurance when you can keep it with you and spend it all??When i asked this they called me stupid!! haha... This is a very stupid post and thenks for all the stupid people to read it!!

Wall Staring

Im proud to announce that, ive, jus today, got a masters degree in wall staring.It was phenomenol.It could even be in the guiness book of world records.I lied down staring at the wall for 2 hours stratight.Can you believe it? But its a good feeling. Its not just the wall you stare at, but its everything.A whole movie, with heros and heroines, You see the whole thing on the wall.Its the way u look at life.The things which you desire.The things which you wish you could have done.The mistakes you had done.The mistakes which u wouldnt want to do.Everything!!You actually will feel fresh after a wall staring session.I did!

Sometimes,we human beings just forget many things which we do in our lives.The wall is a window to the past, the present and the future.After 2 hours of staring, i then looked at the present through the wall and only then got up!!I looked at everything, from my school days, through to my college days, the days when i do my project, the days when i work for a call center before i join iflex, the days at which i work the company, the days when i would,yeah,I WOULD, get married and have kids and lead a regular life as everyone.Then i face reality.I feel, this is necessary in life.But 2 hours of wall staring is really sick, eventhough i feel proud of it.Every single person, should spend some time alone, talking with his mind, and conversing with his conscience.Yeah! I can hear you! Its called day dreaming.As long as you are doing it when you have something else to do, its called day dreaming. Hopefully, I dont look crazy to all you guys. :)

Rendezvous With a Star

It was 9:30 in the night and i was bored as usual.For a change, went to the terrace.There is a water tank, which has no ladder.That is laft to the brilliance of the constructor.Now coming back to the topic.Got on to the tank with great difficulty and spent time staring at the lights in the houses around.Then too bored of doin wat i was, i lied down on the tank.Started staring at the sky. It was quite cloudy.I was basically staring at the sky.It was bautiful. Not only clear skies, even cloudy ones are beautiful.
Was jus gazing at the sky, as i wondered about different things.Literally lot of things were running thru my mind.i found a single star peeping out of a cloud.I felt like i was the happiest person.Then i ran over all my problems again.I saw the tstar twinkling.It felt as though the star was reciting solutions for all my problems.It was awesome.I saw without a blink.Awestriken!!I suddenly felt i found solutions to all my problems.Then came back home.Faced reality again.Here I am again, facing all my problems for real!!