Non-Patriotic love...

I sit on the couch, I blow into my tea and a layer of vapour forms on my glasses. Then, I realise, I have to write a post about the place which is probably going to be my home for the next 2 years. The 1st few days have been awesome. I get to wear a double layered clothing and still end up not sweating. How cool is that? And, I`m kind of enjoying the real formal attire, that I got to wear for the 1st 4 days of the week. Work, or rather training hasn`t started yet, but the people are really good. Nice batch, Good employers. I`m loving it. Damn, I havent visited the mc-d yet! But, no regrets. I`ve got a lot of time for that.

I read huge article about how people are affected by writing about their colleagues. I am not gonna say anything about them. But, of what I know these people are really professionals. Anyways, I`ve got a great batch and a mixture of people. It has people who stands up when a HR personell enters the room. Dudes! We are gonna work with these people. Just because these guys have joined a coupla years before us, we are equals! Its really irritating when people do that. And, of course, it has people cool, casual and with my aggregate ;-). So, for now, life is awesome, bangalore is awesome and yeah, the "work" is awesome!

The White Castle!

I sat on an inclined chair. "This will hurt only a bit", said a voice. I looked directly into my sister`s eyes through the thick lens of my spectacular spectacles. There was a sign of anxiousness. I could`nt understand whether it was "how my brother would react?" or "is my brother gonna be ok?". But, I was relieved with the sight of it. Then I felt pain. Severe pain. I screamed out loud. The look in her eyes changed. It changed into "poor fellow". Then there were tears. I cried. The pain was horrible.
Then, the next thing i saw was, 5 of my teeth, on the ever-silver tray in front of me. Then, the next morning i again felt pain. Horrible pain, while drinking my bournvita! I screamed again. And, again my sister looked at me with a "poor fellow" look!

More than 15 years after that, today, I visited the dentist. I smiled at the lady dentist, probably with a midlife crisis(I came to this conclusion coz she did`nt smile back!). Then, I sat on the similar inclined chair. This time she said, "You wont feel any pain, but you may feel a tingling sensation!". Whats a tingling sensation on your teeth? Anyways, it took her 15 minutes to clean my teeth. She said, "You dont need a cleaning, you have maintained it pretty well." Something i can be proud of. She advised me to wear brases, but people are used to look at me the way I am! So, I said " nevermind!". There goes the episode at the dentist!

P.S. The title is supposed to refer to my mouth which has clean white teeth!

Feeling Rather Empty!

I go way too deep into thought, with echoes - pink floyd, heard continuously in my head, I realise, I am still a homosapien and I do have a sensible clear mind. I made the choices, all the way from the 1st standard. I had designed my life into a non-charismatic boring marathon, in which I run till I find satisfaction. There was a problem. I found satisfaction way too soon. Iam pushing forward, but satisfaction creeps. There hasn`t been a day without me regretting taking up engineering as the tool to feed me in the future. But then, as arun says, "In life there should be no regrets!"! It was my choice of taking up engineering. No one forced me into it. But, I could not speak out. I did not know what was I interested in back then. I would`ve loved to take up law, or professional photography. I just did not speak out! I made the choice of listening to my parents, as always, believing that they would do it for my good.

Why are there so many engineers in our country? Is it something the country must be proud of or is it just wierd? Are there too many families which think, engineering is the only profession which can help them lead a normal life. Some other good but risky professions are there. There arises another sensible question! Are indians just satisfied with an average paying life style or are they just plainly dont want to take risks?

I always believe in a happy life. How much ever you earn, as long as you are happy, you are leading a beautiful life! I can say, the auto driver who took me from central station to home is leadin a good life. The guy sitting in the cash cabin of my college canteen is leading a good life. Is it really that way or is it just me?

I guess I am not a homosapien with a clear mind! But then who does?

Plus it is!

It was a great moment, when dad said, you can get a bike. It was so great that I heard A.R.Rahman`s backround score around me! It was really that kind of a moment. Cherish it always. And, I chose Hero honda passion plus. I have to admit I love the bike. The 1st day I took it to college, I knocked on heaven`s door! And, I made sue accompany me there. But, really it wasn`t that serious. Had heavy bruises. But, close to be run over by the truck which hit us. The bike was damaged. And, I always kind of feel that the bike saved me. I love it. I thought about all this. When I saw my bike getting washed after a long time in the rain.

I do sometimes feel bad, I dont maintain the bike properly. But the bike has always done its duty. All those days, when Im extremely angry that dad dint give me the car; the bike did reciprocate on my violent moves on the road. I`ve put it down 10 times, and still it runs flawlessly.

I never had great fascination towards powerful stylish travel wagons! I thought, passion was economic and for my use its always good. So decided on getting it. I`ve driven 13000kms in just over a year. Planning to take it to banglore. My dear passion, you`ve acknowledged every cut I took, every illegal turn I made and every sudden brakes I put on the signals. Thank you!

Flash news - Ram is jobless enough to see Sivaji for the 2nd time and again love it.

Flash news - Ram is addicted to psychedelic rock. Listening to pink floyd and the doors!

Bengalooru!! Here I come!

I actually do like the place forits weather and air. I knows its getting way too polluted. But, it was Pune i wanted. Im convinced with Bengalooru. Okay, I`ll stop calling it that way! Banglore! Here I come! Yeah! I recieved my Date of Joining and Place of Joining from the HR! It was a phone call I made in the morning. And, yeah obviously Im happy about this. Will be joining work on july 16th. Thats quick. I thought it would be a lot later.

I`ll miss chennai. But, I`ve got to leave this place. Too many memories here. Good and bad! So, I`ll miss the good ones and forget the bad ones. Its really cool to say, "I miss chennai"! So, either way its good. And, there were romours that we were gonna be put up at chennai itself. So, I was kinda pissed for quite a while. But, satisfied now. Already hugged my mom and bid goodbye! So, yeah! Banglore! here i come!

Evolution

We evolved. From, the apes, to an upright human being. And, it doesn`t end there. We have been evolving, ever since, throughout our, decades, centuries and milleniums. And, to the extent of belief I have that, Im made up of, flesh and blood, I do believe that, I evolved too. Not by Darwin`s theory. In my own funny way. Actually, we all do evolve from the second we are born. From, a child which cried for no reason, I evolved to a random school going guy, who hated education; from a hopeless moron, who went for a movie, 2 days before the 12th maths exam, to a guy who is expecting the date of joining from the company which recruited him. Added, are the maturity, ability to actually think and a helluva lot of fat. Yeah, damn right! We all do evolve.

Life has been an awkward rollercoaster ride, without the saftey belt(s)! Really. Too many risks and too many perceptions. I realised, life was gonna be hard, when I did the watchman job for a very dear friend, when he did his romance. It was my 12th coaching class, and it was 5:30 in the morning. And, my teachers appreciated me, when I answered them perfectly in the class. Our, physics sir used to say stories in the middle of the class for relaxations. It was crap. We slept anyway! So, this was the part of the class, when we gave break to the sleeping.One day, he started....

Physics Sir : Krishna theva raja, asked thenali what was the most pleasureful thing in the world.
And, from back of the class, a voice came to life. Good guess! It was me.
I : To Pee!
Physics sir: yeah yeah!

Then he started teaching. No sign of me! Some of my friends, who slept even through the story telling sessions, asked me, howcome I was so brilliant to answer such questions. I just blushed and went back to sleep. School was fun; especially coz, I dint study.

But, college was different. College, was the only place, where I could not study and dont feel guilty about it. So, it all happened. I marched passed the enormously short semesters on a Clear-Flunk basis. Yeah. I clear one paper and flunk in other. But, apparently it did work out. Me, being someone, who believes, "whatever happens to you, is only because of you; doesn`t matter if its good or bad", will say that, I was responsible for what I am today. From the position in which I am now, I will not give you the wrong perception of me that, Im good and disciplined and that, Im someone who loves to study and excel in everything. Im the same old guys, who studies, exactly 2 days before the exam and scores a modest 60%, eventhough I dont have anymore exams to write.

I was the kind of guy, who prays exactly on the day of the exam, for which the preparation was minimum. And, I also have been the guy who cursed god for the bad results. And, when I realised, it was me, I stopped yelling at those immovable, colourful photographs of beautiful people with a helluva lot of jewellary. I can describe myself as a semi-aethists. Or, as my friend joobie puts it, I believe in god, but not in relegions. I believe in the big bang. But, I think a superior force made it happen. So, the semi-aethist title!

This has turned out to be a long long post. And, now, I`ve got to do the most pleasureful thing in the whole world.

Engineer Finally!

Today, I have officially become an engineer, with the results out, and me scoring 78%! For all those who know me, 78% is not my kind of percentage. And, dad was all enthusiastic when i told him this! Yeah obviously! For a man, who had thought that his son, would`nt clear the 12th std, his son finishing engineering, should have been a good feeling. But, otherwise, it was just another day. Had dinner with the guys at a veg restaurant, vegetarian one. Ate till the point where the oesophages touches the modula oblangada (dont care if the spelling is wrong!), if at all they touch each other! And, yeah, we had good fun today, calling each other engineers. Its is an accomplishment. aint it?

Beau Nuits!!

It was 11pm that night. I wanted to go to bed. I was desperate. But, I wasnt sleepy. My mom held my hand, tight, so I wouldnt run away! All, I wanted was to get a good night sleep. Then, mom`s face turned red and she yelled. She yelled at the hieght of her voice. I dint budge at all. Then, she pinched me under my arm! Ouch! That hurt! I had tears in my eyes. She came close to me and said "Finish this chapter and go to sleep!". I had to! And, thats the story of me getting the 23rd rank in the quaterly exams of 1993! And, I utterly burst out laughing when I think about these things that happened in my school days! Yeah, the good old days, when I had to fake studying to get crackers for Diwali, when I had to pursue my parents not to go for the parent-teacher meeting(Damn!! it never worked!!).

And, today, its 1 am, mom just woke up and remindes me that I had to sleep! I can call myself nocturnal. As, I have been for the past 8 months. But, it shouln`t be this way. What the hell?? I`ll be a normal S/W engineering guy, who works 14 hrs a day, partying in the night, after 2 months now! So, nowadays, Im kinda used to being bored, getting all the sleep I want. You know what I mean! This post couldn`t be getting more boring. Okay, chill out people! ciao.

P.S. : If you are wondering what the title meant, it means beautiful nights in french.

Rock Bottom Laziness!

Thanks to thou, who was kind enough to lend me his guitar. Im looking forward to learn playing it. Actually, I`ve been looking into the internet for guitar lessons. But, its never as good as the real stuff. But, anyways, thanks for the guitar man! I really appreciate it!

There has been a lot of rock shows, going on around. In, chennai, there has been rock shows going on in YMCA grounds for the past one week. Edo, had tickets for a last week show, and he had asked me to come. I actually, wanted to go with the guys, and have fun. But, ended up not goin. 2 reasons!
1. Sometimes, you like a person, and u like everything that person likes and hate everything that person hates. On the other hand, when you hate a person, you hate everything the person likes and like everything the person hates! Apparently, rock music is something which a person i hate, likes. So, I kinda learnt to hate rock music.
2. There was "the match"! Couldnt afford to miss it!

Thou, also asked me if, I could come to the Aerosmith show in Blore! And, again, Im not much into Aerosmith, though i respect those guys! So, ended up not goin!

Flashnews: Ram, couldnt move his ass, to join the tennis classes, eventhough, he really wants to join!

confused- Broke my head, rolled it in a bowling alley and ate brain sandwich! Help me!

Just before the exams which i just wrote, i had a lot of plans for the holidays. First, i decided to work in a call center, before i join i-flex. For, like 2 months, you know, earning some good bucks, not depending on dad for my expenditure. But, then, decided against it, when i realised, it wasnt worth it, except for the money. So, the call center thing is out of question now. Then, second, i was planning to write gmat and keep, so was planning to prepare for it. The initial step for the preparation is to buy the gmat book, which i havent taken yet. Im now almost sure that, I`ll be taking the exam before I start working. But, studying for gmat alone is not gonna be good, coz, im really really not good at studying! So, have to do something else. Whatever I do, there must be a meaning to it. I thought of volunteering to some social help organisation and help them for the next 2 months. But, confused. Cant think straight(im not gay!!!). I am jus nervous that, i might get it all wrong! Gimme some sugestions, of what i should be doing for the next 2 months. help me!

Mi...

Last week was a satisfactory week. May 18th, friday, was my mom`s b`day. And im glad, i cud do something which could be called as birthday celebration, to my standards. Honestly speaking, mom has never celebrated her b`day. Maybe a handful of occasions when me and sis gave her flowers or greeting cards, which said, "ma we love you". We have to feel great on our birthdays. For, mom, it has always been just another day, doing the dishes, cooking breakfast, lunch, dinner and my 4th meal. None of her sisters wishes her. Her birthdays, for the past 55 years have been like this. But, this time, thanks to the money my sister had sent me, I took her, dad and my grandmother to a beautiful movie. Yeah, thats the celebration ive been talking about. And, the occasion was, my mom`s b`day. So, it can be accounted as a celebration. Im glad, and I could definitely say that, she felt good, on her b`day. I had a feeling of satisfaction.

I also bought her a pizza. She, used to ask me for it, whenever I go out with friends for dinner. I always used to forget about it, the next time I go out. But, i remembered. I went to the pizza corner, bought her a good medium pizza, and came home. But, this was the next day of her b`day. But again, glad i could atleast do this for her. It actually feels good when you do stuffs which pleases the people you love. Love you ma... always do.

Blurred Vision!

We all go through a lot of things in the journey towards eternity. And, for me, engineering is one of the long trips I took in the journey. It was long enough that I was desperate to finish it. It is a different feeling that Im gonna be on my own, and it is sad indeed that, we guys are gonna part! But, yeah eternity is not an easy destination. All those things apart. Im now happy that I`ve finished engineering. Though I cant be so sure about it. I have no idea where each of us will be in another 3 or 4 months. I`ll have to find new friends, new people new environment. Although I dont feel the way I felt when I entered college from school, a pinch of nervousness prevails. AS always, to satisfy myself, its all in the game.

Had finished my 62nd engineering exam on friday. We wanted to celebrate. But, none of us felt that great. Or maybe it was just me. I remembered those days, when me and the guys discussed how much our college sucked! But, its always the nature that, when we leave something, we realise the worth of it. Thats okay. Im sure, im gonna miss college. I dont know about others, but college was the only place where i had fun.

I went for a family trip to yerkaud. Me, mom, 2 uncles and 2 aunts. Really, it was an awesome place. It wasnt cold, but it was pleasant. Very pleasant. Uncle had booked a room with an awesome view. It was a great trip, excepting the petty quarells. Now Im back, sitting and listening to Save you-Provoked. Awesome song and Im addicted to it! Maybe, we guys will plan something this week. Hope we have some fun in our last days together.

As Good As it Gets

21 years of journey towards eternity has been breathtakingly phenomenal. Learnt, lost, got, gave, troubled and troubled by a lot of things and people. As a little kid, in school, I`ve never felt competition. Never have been the best kid, with best scores in the class. I used to wonder how it would feel being a 'topper'. Maybe, it was a great feeling. But I was already feeling great. And the greater I feel, as I take my next step towards eternity. I have definitely had my bad, sad days. But who hasnt? Now, at this moment, I feel, I lived a perfect life. You dont have to be a winner in every aspect. What matters is, at the end of the day, I am happy.

As good as it gets. I love that phrase. Its a movie which has Jack Nicholson and Helen Hunt, a romantic comedy. Good one. But, not here to talk about the movie. Everyday, I wake up to sunshine, I feel one more day old. I feel it, and its a good feeling. When Im older, and much more busier, I will remember these days, as the days I enjoyed lving. But I wont be complaining. Living every single day to its capacity. I love life.

For the pics from the goa trip, check out the following links..

http://www.flickr.com/photos/94337653@N00/?saved=1

http://www.flickr.com/photos/7517776@N02/

http://mydearmemories.blogspot.com/

Definitely, an unforgettable trip! Goa is a beautiful place. That is obvious. But surely, after chicago, its the best place I`ve been. Actually, thats the farthest place I`ve been in India! Yeah, I loved the trip. All the guys were in the mood to groove. We had excellent fun with each other. And, finally in the end of college life, we get to understand each other properly. And, it was a great gang.

Thou - Mastermind of the trip!Very responsible, and always ready to have fun!
Edo - The silent guy. Wipes any kind of tension with a smile.
Sue - Another mastermind behind the trip. He booked the tickets. And, yeah reponsible and understands people.
Sori - Makes a guy shut up wih just a stare. Looks like a bollywood hero with his sunglasses.
Shan - Mr. Irresponsile. Misplaced my bag, lost his wallet twice, lost the keys to his luggage, and lot more of his "leelaigal"!
Zbhai- The fun guy of the group. Laughs at the silliest jokes.
body - The weekest guy of the group. Confused all the time. But he is "Romba Nallavan".
Saro - He laughs at everything me and sue does. Adjusting is a problem.

It was a good trip and we all loved it. Thank you guys for the experience.

P.S. My photogrphs taken there are really really bad!

Whats worse than a Hot bad day?

When you have a bad day, its like getting hit by a cotton ball and you end up getting a head ache. It was like that yesterday. I had been in thou`s place monday nights. Played Brian Lara cricket 2007, did little bit of project report work, slept at 5 in the morning and got up at 7 and came home. I took print out of the report. Wich took like 1 hour for a copy and i took 2 copies. And pressure from my friend Se to go to college and get the report verified soon. I finished the printing process only by 12. Went to college to see our guide hogging on "Drumstick" Sambar rice. Couldn`t stand seeing it. So I waited. Waited for half an hour for her to finish her lunch. Then she found small mistakes. She asked us to redo it!! hell with her.

Then came home. Dint have money. I was bankrupt after thou`s home night, the previous night. Went to the atm, took money and bought papers. Came back and started printing. In a wink, 20 papers dot stuck in the printer. Wow!! I was sweating like hell. I had to finish the work the next day. Dint know what to do. I then called "body". He asked me to come home and take printout. Its a good 10 to 15 kms to his place. So went there and took print out. The bad day just continued the next day. Went to the shop for binding and he said he would take a life time to bind it. So went to se`s place and then gave it for binding somewhere near his place. Phew! Finally it was over! A good 30 hours of nightmare. But it feels good that it is over now! With the tempo increasing for the trip which starts day after, it feels even better.

Blank Mind!

Knowing a celebrity doesnt make anyone look cool! No reason to mention it, but it just crossed my mind. There are a lot of guys whom I know who knows, you know who, celebrities. Doesnt make them celebrities for sure. It seriosuly aint a topic to post about. I wrote a post last night. Wasnt good, so deleted it. Recovered the same post and changed some of it. Still wasnt good enough. So deleted it. Wrote another post, which wasnt good either. So deleted it and now I`m writing this one. Going to watch 300 tomorrow. Saw finding neverland today. Finding neverland was just a beautiful movie. Depp is awesome. So is Kate Winslett. They are just good actors.

I met up with an old friend with whome i had a huge quarell sometime back. Its been 5 months since i saw him. Quite a big quarell. Fought our souls out!! Met up with him th day before and we were okay with each other. I cant call him a friend now, but i can forgive him as a human being. Maybe, he isnt even sorry, but yeah, to me what he did was bad and i forive him for that. The other things, i did some shopping. Got 3 t-shirts, 2 shirts and 2 jeans for 1300 bucks. It was an awesome sale. And i got a Nike shoe for 1300 bucks, which was worth 2300/-. So happy i saved some money.

Doin it the Goan Way!

Keep your ears wide open! Yeah, I said Goa! And, my requests have been granted finally by the guys. The tickets have been booked. We are leaving to goa on 13th of april and coming back on 20th. Thats a whole week. Im excited alright. The guys at a certain stage started calling me "goa fantasy guy" (I made that up!!). Now, the stage is set for the ultimate fun of the lifetime. Now i have to get geared up for a trip which is 2 weeks away. We are going directly to banglore. We stay there for a day and a night and then we leave for goa. Its gonna be fun with 10 guys on board. Looking forward to it! :)

Flash News: Ram, bought batteries and film rolls for the camera and has already started clicking his way to fame!!
(I agree! That was a little too much!!)

Yet Another Flash news: Ram could`nt stop talking to someone he hates!
(Yeah! Thats it! Im outta here!

Back To Hell!

The title doesn`t mean, Dindigul was a complete success. But yeah, I had to rush to college in the morning to get my project review done, came back home, slept for 5 hours and got up with a damned head ache. So, this is hell. But, Dindigul was fun. We were only 3 of us. We had a preety decent hotel room, and yeah we watched the pathetic match. It did not affect me much, the indians simply dint deserve to get into the super eights. But, yeah lets get over it and Im gonna forget cricket for sometime now.

We went to a place called, Sirumalai. A very beautiful endangered mountain range, which hardly had any human inhabitants. Well, thats apparently one of the place which would be close to my heart all the time. We took a helluva lot of pictures and yeah we had quality time there. The most embarassing parts of the trip is where we dine and interact with JK`s family. They were all good people, infact very good people who talked a language which none of us understood, and they cooked real damn well. But, dining at someone`s place whom we dont know, is embarassing. But we coped up well. And the marriage, was good. Good food, good people, unknown language, and very few people. We were the odd men out and i can say we really dint love it.

The heat riding up our spinal cords, upto the modula oblangada, we did manage pretty well. We went to another place called Mallai-Kottai(mountain-fort). Its a fort built by Tippu Sultan. Overall, it was a satisfactory trip and i dont regret it. But the heat is building up and guy like me who drives around half my life, its real hard. Now, im back to hell, and im being promoted in the office. Dont take it seriously. Im working in a vetti office. And im a vetti officer. Now, im the CEO of the office and believe me, there are quite a number of ppl working under me.

Expensive Embarassment!

Yippee!! I`ve got my Slr camera finally! Thank you Kirthi, Love you! You can see me posting my works hereafter. But, thats gonna take some time. Im goin to Dindugul tommorow. Its a place near madurai. We,ie, me, Arun and Kugha, are goin to a friend`s(jaikumar`s) sister`s marriage. She is just his cousin sis, but yeah im goin to have some fun(yeah! In dindugul! Dont you dare raise your eyebrows!). I usually feel embarassed when im called to a function happening to someone whom i dont know! But yeah, thats how life is(I really dint have to say that, but whatever?!).

It once happened, when this bugger, Kugha, took us to a birthday party. You wont believe this. It was the birthday party of, one of his friend`s, who happened to a girl(aunty?!), mother, who turned 50! That really is one of the most ridiculous thing i`ve ever done. Me and Arun dint step in the party hall(?!). We went for a second to say hi to the girl(aunty?!). But we werent a part of it. They were singing a birthday song for a 50yr old woman, and she is obliging with a whole heart. Poor family. And after that, this is the occasion that i`m gonna get embarrassed. And the thing is, I`ve got tickets for 300 bucks and must cost the same for way back, and i`ll be getting some money from my parents to get embarassed. Im looking forward to it. But yeah, we are gonna be there for a coupla days. So it must be fun.

(P.S. This is to my sister, who probably is seriously reading this. No! I am not taking the camera down there!)