Pride

I have successfully completed six months, since i wrote the post about me following rules and all. I am proud to say that, I`ve managed to follow the road rules and traffic rules. Ever since then, I`ve not got into a share auto. Share autos are forbidden to accomodate more than 3 people. But none of the auto guys follow the rules. My motto was that, i shouldnt get into share autos which break the rules. But, even when i get into the share auto and demand the driver not to take more than 3 passengers, no one including the co passengers accept to travel by it, fearing the probable hike in the price. As I said, the mistakes must be corrected from the bottom. And the root cause for the guys to commit mistakes is us, the public. And the other motto i took up on that post is, i shud never bribe the cops. I dint get a chance to meet the guys on the road as i mostly follow the traffic rules.

It feels good when there are no mistakes committed from my side. Makes me guilty free.

Skating on the Soap!

You all know the story of Ram being vetti(jobless) all day. But does any of you know the story of Ram sitting and watching television all day? I agree. There isnt a considerable difference. But, I got more options in Tv now, than before. Yeah, it took me a record 6 months to persuade my parents to get a STB(set top box). Thats cable for the paid channels. I got it for the world cup. But by the time it was installed, India was out of the world cup. But, nevertheless, its been a great time pass.I get all the channels now, and I watch everything. Im so glued now, that my parents repaired the old portable television to watch the daily soaps. And believe me, there are quite a lot of them.

Before getting the Stb, I did a small thing by asking my parents to "sacrifice" the soaps for one night, coz I was watching a movie. Mom, after a considerable struggle gave up. Dad, was desperate. He was so desperate to have the remote and watch the soap. That was a little too much for missing a soap for a day. Its getting into the head of the people who stay at home. They get addicted to it. And I hate it when mom justifies it by saying "its just for entertainment". My god! Dad was fighting for the remote to me for "entertainment". And it was just one day! Ive never disturbed them when they watch that shit. And mom watches soaps in which she doesnt even know the name of the characters. And, believe me they are not even near good. I`ve went through some tooth-biting watching sessions. Its totally out-of-the-mind stuff. Its totally stupid. But yet they watch it like they got nothing else to do! This should end at some point of time. I sure do wish it does.

Mankind!!

For the past 20 years, i`ve grown to be, nothing but 75 kgs of fat! Lot of people wanted me to be a lot of things. I`ve certainly not made their thought, come true(gee are those the right words?). Okay, Ive been around a lot of people and I think 20yrs of life is enuf to say this! People do change. They aint the way they once were. I change characters myself. Well the worst part is, when you find out they arent the way you thought they were. Am i making any point here(damn!! im too bad at this!!)? The basic thing is, people around me, never turn out to be the way, I think they were. Now, that hurts. Okay, Im kinda pissed at something, which I cannot tell for sure.

Does this trust thing happen to everyone? You know, you trust someone from the bottom of your heart and they do something which you have asked them not to do, how much ever damage that directly creates to you, how would you feel? I sure do feel bad. WTF? I live for me, why should i be worried about others? I can say that, but cant do that. I dont mean to say im a social worker. Im jus saying, I dont want to put the people who have seen me grow all these years, in embarassment. And I dont want to be the source of any problem thats created in the family. Though i have been, a lot of times, believe me ive felt guilty for each and every incident.

Cant think of anything else... goodbye!!

Share(auto) Burden!!

Jus a small incident; me and a friend of mine were goin somewhere by bike. My friend was driving, not rash,not too fast, but pretty decently.We were goin on the Arcot road, the infamous but extremely over populated road. There are services of share autos which carry passengers from porur to vadapalani. Its pretty cheap and lot of people prefer it. So when my friend was driving, a share auto jus took a cut and ive never seen so violent a driving before.I cursed the driver.There were atleast 10 people in the auto and with them, he was driving like that.He never bothered, he din care if he had put a scratch on a merc.He was fast, or atleast trying to be.I said loudly so that he could hear, "எப்படி போரான் பார்".He turned back, managed a stare, by that time he was about to damage another car. I was pissed at him and we moved on.

A few days later, I was coming back from college, and all the buses were crowded, too lazy to stand or to hang on the footboard of the bus, i decided to get into a share auto.I was the 1st to get in, so got a place in the cushion seat.Then in a matter of time, the auto was filled. Then he started.I dint bother to see how he was driving.I sat, looking at things on the way.I dint care if he was goin slow or fast.He was goin slow, but i had all the time of my life. Then as i stared out, i thought.Two days back, one of these drivers earned a curse from me and now im thankful to him, coz i could reach home a bit more comfortable and earlier than a bus. But then i realised. Not me, We, all of us have a mentality that we dont have to bother about a social disruption unless we are directly associated with it. Can anyone say they dont curse the share auto guys on road when you drive?? And the same time, you dont bother about other cars, who are affected, especially when you are travelling in it.

This is just an example.Most of us dont bother about what we do, when we are directly involved in the crisis and we do the mistake what others do.And we have the tendacy to curse people who commit the same mistake which we may do if we were in the same situation.People dont want their policemen to get bribes.But the ones who think that way, tend to give away a certain amount of money when they are in trouble.It works the same way everywhere, especially where we think there are serious crime going on.It is funny when I realise, ive been cursing the govt while the mistake actually starts from me.I will surely try to ignore those mistakes, for example, if im caught by a traffic police, here after i will volunteer to pay the fine in the court with a proper reciept.And I will not get into a share auto if it has more people than it is allowed to have!!

RELATIONSHIPS!!!

Yeah i am gonna talk abt it!! I wud rather say neva get into one!! I believe relationships today hardly last for a year!! "The Ego" plays a very big role!! And believe it or not, Even if one adjusts and the other doesnt, the relationships end in a failure!! Humiliation makes both members of the couple happier when they are in a fight or on the verge of a break up!! I wish there was no such thing as ego!! But it is there!!
Im not gonna be makin up dialogues like love is divine and love is blind!! Im jus sayin, loving someone jus brings someone special to the lives of ppl and wen they realise the loved one is leaving them it is a terrible feeling. And when this happens after they know that their loved one also loves them, its unbelievably depressing. That should never happen to anyone in this world!!
But somethings like being frank to the partner is very very essential in a relationships!! Yeah!!! Most of the ppl humiliate their partner by not being frank!! And the other thing is the response!! Even if the couple is in the verge of a break up, i believe the shud communicate with each other properly and each of them shud respond-atleast for the happines of their partner, if they had loved them truly!!
This cud be crap but these are my ideas. And behind the mask of mine, there isnt mere flesh there are ideas which are bulletproof!!