Saturday, August 02, 2008
The Rat Race
I had been working my ass out for that long. I`ve never imagined myself working that much. To be very honest, no one ever has imagined "me" work that hard. Not that I have some time for myself, I`m planning to study something and go ahead with life. I've been telling people, with an evil look that, I want more money. And, I`ve been willing to do anything for it. I cant believe I also am falling into the shell of earning money, wanting more, getting more and still wanting more. The life, the professional life, has not given the openings for me to do what i want to do. And, to point out the mistakes i did, I very, very lately realised what i want to do. I`ve become a serious contender in the Rat Race.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Rampi Says...
Motivation never seem to come from the hard working person you like or who is your friend. It rather comes from a person whom you dont admire, when he/she rises to a greater level. *
*It has made me start studying for Gmat again.
Saturday, June 07, 2008
Ten things I miss about Chennai/Home.
- The Beach!
- The sound of the AC thermostat going “click”, when I’m half asleep at 2 or 3am.
- My feet on the table, Pink Floyd casting their spell, looking into the monitor.
- Hours and hours of wall staring.
- The numerous, midnight freak out places. (It’s not always about the booze!)
- Bike rides, with an attire to be worn in Antarctica.
- Long naps on the open book.(more of a college student thing)
- Delicious mangoes. I know I’m still in India. But, the pleasure of sitting in front of the TV and sucking on a cold mango seed on a Chennai summer afternoon. WOW!
- The rare rain. And the temptation to get wet.
- The beach! Oh I’ve already listed that. The teleporting thoughts while I sit and watch the waves.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Stating the Obvious
I have brought my dad`s car to Bangalore. Diesel price has been increased. I, not contradicting with universal opinion, accept the fact that, bangalore traffic is quite annoying, especially when you use a car. But, the climate is awesome and with good music in the car, and if you are not in a hurry, then you can always live happily with a car here. Again, with the hike in the fuel prices, I might just contradicting myself.
For quite sometime, I have been wanting to write about the things I notice when I go on a long walk on the airpot road. But, by the time i started writing, I had stopped taking one of those walks. This is an absolutely non-sense post, with a non-sense title. But, Heres a start. I`m not gonna leave this place. So, expect more soon.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Rampi Says...
There is a tiny difference between a good guy and the bad guy; the good guy has the fear of being seen!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Rampi Says...
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Void,NULL....ahhh, the head hurts!

The voidness prevails! I have nothing to write, though I think a lot! I am sitting in my office, in my spare time, the little which is there, and writing this on the love telling/rose giving eve! No, I’m not going to write about my confusions about being un-committed again. This is going to be about another relationship all-together.
Over the years of watching and learning, and getting hurt and learning, and finally getting screwed and learning, I have developed immense immunity towards things which would normally put normal people into an advanced state of depression. This immunity rocks! Seriously, it makes you feel like “GOD”! It feels like its been a decade since I got depressed and its been a fairly good journey.
Now, this immunity apparently grew to a fair level and I started getting immune to people. I never really cared for what others around me, directly or indirectly related to me thought about me. I do have a group of friends who are pretty much similar. But, you know, crazy things happens sometimes which makes me wonder that, “Am I a normal human being, just like others?” . But most of the time when I wonder, I answer myself, Dennis Leary style! “Naah! I’m an a**hole!”.
Anyway, you talk to a friend, a good one, who might just “care” for you. You don’t care a damn, you don’t put what that person says into your head, but, you know that, the soul is a good friend of yours! You are in an awkward position where you just receive and you don’t give. And, having been immune for so long, you don’t even know if you have to give or not. You just don’t know what you have to do, and basically end up confused. I guess the best way is to be the way you have always been.
It is a bit of a stupid post! I ask a question and answer it myself. But what the hell, after a long break I’m writing something, so forgiven for whatever I write!
Tataz!
Live and Let Die!
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Rampi Says...
The impact a book you read makes is so enormous that it makes a difference in the whole of your life!
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Singilinium!
Single-hood is good! just beautiful! I have no regrets whatsoever! I`m leading an absolutely happy life being a single! I ain`t complaining about it at all! Okay! Now I have the liberty to say the following stuffs.
I was talking to a friend, who apparently was pretty frustrated about being a single and he so desperately wanted a girl friend. I asked him if he was serious! Something like this coming from a guy like him, who apparently cared a damn about girls was surprising! Okay, now i understood that he was pretty serious! I asked him what the hurry was. We apparently had all our lives. Then he said something which was so so pathetic! "Age is catching up dude!"WTF?
Okay, then reality knocked the door! Yes age was catching up, not physically, I`am just going to be 22 from being 21! That does make a difference! Yes, apparently, right there, in front of my eyes, each and everyone of the individuals i know either get committed or gets married! I have no idea how it makes them feel, but it does make me feel old! I used to love the days when I can frankly say a girl that she`s dumb! Now I`m called a male chauvinist! Which doesn't bother me much!
I was talking to the same friend of mine, and we were talking about how every single girl we come across is either dumb and stupid and how all the smart girls are seriously committed. And when I was cribbing about how everyone I know is committed now, to another friend of mine, she says, "its the age!. Everyone tends to get committed or get into a relationship in early 20`s whether it works out or not." I nodded in acknowledgment. So, what am I supposed to do now? I have seen guys who hunt, flirt with every available girl in sight. That can never be me! And every time I say someone that, I prefer being a single, they look at me like a Martian!
Okay the fact is, I might feel too organized or committed or whatever if I`m having someone to share each and everything with. And thats totally contrary to what I am now! Well, love life the way it is now, and expect it to be the same!
And seriously, Live and let die! :-)
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Midnight melodies!
Firstly, I saw taare zameen par! Okay, no! Its not fair for me to review a movie like that! Aamir proves he`s the best once again. I watched it with a friend. I was kind of cautious not to cry with the guy near me. But, I ended up laughing when I saw buckets of tears from his eyes! It was a very good movie!
Then, my eventful new year! The most eventful one!(I am Sarcastic!) It was bad, even worse than the new year i slept at 11 15! I was boarding a train to chennai. I was wide awake at the stroke of midnight, listening to music! Then the disaster happened, the zune died! The happening marked the end of the only entertainment that was existing on that train with me! Then the fight started, the fight between the roaring lion and the growling bear and the hissing snake. I could hear it all. There was this 60 year old lady, playing the lion, the parsi guy playing the bear and a middle aged woman playing the snake! If you dont understand, they were all snoring! I couldnt sleep all night.
Then, the sabari mala trip! Was as usual the best thing that happened this year, so far! We were lucky to see a herd, or whatever you call it, of elephants! It was wonderful!
Then, something happened which made me think! There was a fight, or a misunderstanding, or whatever; between people who are/were/is a good friend(s) of mine! It was confusing 1st. But, later, the fault and the mistake was recognized. The sinner was aptly punished. The punisher dint have to think twice. OK! All is fine now, the life is as smooth as a lotus petal. But, it just makes me wonder, to what level a simple action of stupidity can cause a super noah! The relationships between people have been used and reused and exploited. Bad! Hmmm...
Now, I live basically on music and coffee! Well, those who dint know, I got the zune a month back. For those who dont know what the zune is, it is the microsoft`s reply to apple iPod. Well, its big, but stores lots of music and pretty good too. And, when we get it for a very cheap price, then anything is worth it! So, music+coffee=life!
Otherwise, life`s cool!
Live and Let die!
Chow!
(Inappropriate title, dont mind!)
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Rampi Says...
The excitement that happens when something which is never available, is given for a couple of hours is worth every second!Written when full internet access was provided in office! :-)
Friday, December 14, 2007
Too good 07...
1.Started with the tremendous sabari mala trip. I personally loved the trip, mostly because, I was the responsible younger guy who does the things which are supposed to be done. And a sabari mala trip is always worth it. Looking forward for the next trip, for which i`m leaving on
jan 1st(To hell with the new year plans!).
2.I got the freedom which I`ve always wanted. Having grown in an absolutely typical middle class family with a well mannered dad and extrememly lovable(sacrificing) mother, there was always the urge to break the shackles and get out of the rolling rubber ball. So, the freedom matters to me a lot.I got it big time this year.
3.Then came the "last days of college" time. Well to be very honest,our college sucked real big time. We dint have the typical college life. There wasnt any culturals,we never danced/sung on stage(But, when our college is compared with other colleges in chennai, our`s is a 10527 times better!). But, just as they say, "beauty lies in the eyes of a beer holder!", we had a lot of fun. I can cherish the enormous number of night-outs in thou`s place.The parties by the pool in joo`s farm house.The embarassments among us, which were actually things to talk about later when we meet up. The un-hidden secrets, things which we thought never existed among each other.
The time with the guys occupied the 1st 7 months of the year. And I thankfully dint miss a second of it.
4.The trip to goa! I`ve written about the trip numerous number of time before. But, cant resist. Its something which none of us can forget for the rest of our lives.The sleepless nights on the beach, the droolings over real life bikini babes. Who can forget the fun we had! Guys, if you read this, it was an amazing trip!Thank you!
5.Bangalore! I left chennai for good, and came to settle down in india`s sillicon valley. Its actually not a big deal, if you are witnessing this from outside.I know the hopes I had cultivated that I would be posted somewhere outside chennai. Chennai wasnt the place for me. I was in a state where, I was okay even if they had put me up in the middle of a god forsaken desert, as long as it wasnt chennai. I love this city, not coz of the climate, not coz of all the good looking women,
not coz of the night-life(which i`m yet to explore completely). I love bangalore, coz its not chennai. I have no memories here. Its like I started a new life here.New people, new house, new room-mates. This is one the huge things that has happened to me.
6.After life in bangalore for about 3-4 months, I was asked the question. I was asked if I had wanted to go to chennai. The good thing was that they gave me a choice.I took 1 day to decide. There were people who wanted me to go to chennai and there were people otherwise. But, I took a decision, to stay back. The good thing is, I never regretted the decision. And it was one of the biggest decision i had to make. It really isnt as easy as it sounds!
Every second this year has been good, so contrasting to last year! I dont expect anything of the coming year! And the 15 days left are gonna fly away without any traces of existence. So, happy new year mates! Love you all!
Monday, December 10, 2007
Rampi Says...
There is an adventure t every point of life. Its just us who has to find it and dig it out! I just mean to say, life is not boring!
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Irony of Life
When the head feels heavy, the vision is blurred, the sun is peeping through the window, I slowly opened my eyes. Searched for the mobile which was somewhere near. Checked the time. It was late. But I dint care, I wanted to sleep more. So I did sleep more. The i wake up half an hour after that. It was a monday morning. I had to go to college. I opened my wardrobe. My clothes were neatly pressed and arranged. I took out the worst of the shirts and wore it. I dint care how i looked. I looked at the watch. It was 8:30. I had to be at college by 9. I dint care about that. I wanted to be a bit economic and wanted to catch the bus. But its too late. I took the bike and left to college!
Now,
When the head feels heavy, the vision is blurred, the sun is peeping through the window, the thought struck me, that I was late I had to leave for office. It was a monday morning. You know the usual monday syndrome. I opened my closet to check if i had any clothes at all. Then I looked at the laundry basket. It was overflowing. Then I again looked into my wardrobe. I picked up a wrinkled shirt. Smelt it to check if it was washed. Felt a relief when it smelt good. Then I spent 5 minutes asking my room-mate to iron it for me. He refuses! Then i do one of the most painful job of the universe. I pressed the shirt. I then listen to the curses of the fellow being that i was the reason for all of the guys being late. We left! To the office, to work,to earn!
Friday, November 16, 2007
Monday, November 12, 2007
Rail Road Blues...
I had wanted to ak her "You`d rather book your tickets earlier then questioning the presence of other people`s heart".The girl which my friend volunteered to keep on his lap was a good entertainment.
I just wonder. Its just not me. Its a whole bunch of people who refuse to help voluntarily.Is it a right for me to not help people because, I paid more and booked a 2nd class ticket?Of course they should`ve planned and booked tickets earlier. But, still its not gonna hurt to break the shell and help!NO! I did not help the poor woman. She stood between the several legs which had struggled to squeeze in.
I dint think of helping her by getting up. Figuratively speaking, the compartment would`ve held upto 300 people sitting and stand with a fair level of discomfort.
But there were nearly 500 people. When the situation is so bad, should I sacrifice my seat for a woman who is standing staring at her 2 kids sitting on strangers` laps?
I really felt the nausea of me not able to do anything about it. After a long time, I felt bad for the mean-ness i`ve delivered.Everytime I looked into her eyes, I saw hatred. Of course she dint have the right to hate me. And I was least bothered to care.But, "One cant be more spiteful nor more cruel, especially when they hate someone for all the wrong reasons", I had read in a book.
So, I felt some arrows flying directly at me!
I do not know why I thought that much for the last hour of the train journey.
But, it did hit my mind, inspite of the 100s of children and really really loud aunties.But yet confused. Confused of why I am here. What I am doing?Guess everyone searches for the answers for that question.And, I guess, hardly anyone finds answers.
I just move on to go to office and do nothing, but blog!
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Apologies = "NULL"
There are 2 kinds of people in the world. The arrogant egotistic assholes and the idiots. The 1st kind talk and the 2nd kind actually "listens". The arrogant egotistic assholes get to their egotic(i dont even know if its a word) best when in crisis. Why the hell am I talking about this?? Yeah. Coz, I`m one of the idiots. It takes some time for "us" idiots to realise how idiotic it is for "us" to listen to these god-forbidden offenders.
There arent any good people around. Even if they are good, they are equally anti-social. So they cancel each other! Evil is what people are. People are totally heartless to even fight about something else over a dead person. There are friends. Friends who are immune; so immune that they cant even console a friend for his loss; who sleeps as a friend cries for his loss. The earth rotates because of ego. Ego is necessary. But, There should be love and willingness to help.
I`m just pissed off at something that had happened. Might look like a piece of crap to people who read. I apologise!
P.S. Equi, I got your fever. I started posting my titles in JAVA style. ;-)
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
Heaven`s Door!
Taking things easily, is supposed to be a very very good thing. But the problem with it is, the most serious of the problems are taken easily, and end up smiling at 2 disstressed faces. I love riding on a bike! Especially, when I`m a pillion rider! That happened today. It was lovely, I had closed my eyes, with the chennai`s dirty wind running through my hair; I just loved it. Arun was driving fast. It was very much anticipated. We crashed into a cycle guy. Luckily, he was absolutely un-injured! Unluckily, we, or rather, I am severely in jured! Remember the 2 huge bindi like scars on my right palm? I`ve got one on my left now. Guess, it just had to have the uniformity. I had put a band aid, which had started to look more disgusting than the wound itself! Now, it hurts, but I`m used to pain.
"Knock knock knockin on Heaven`s door"
I wanted to conduct a poll! How long should an average parent worry about their son going out in night? I dont know! This gets on my nerve! I had bought 2 sarees for mom and a shirt for dad! It felt absolutely brilliant! I just lived the moment, a son can live only once in his life time! But, (hope amma doesnt read this!) Torture in the name of care, is pretty annoying. Amma, Appa; take a break caring for me, and start caring for each other!
"Knock knock knockin on Heaven`s door"