blah blah blah...

You want something? go get it! Period!

Thats a quote from persuit of happyness. And yeah of course i believe it. I also believe in another thing. I am responsible for everything I do! I am the only reason that I am happy now. I am the reason for all the problems I faced. And I herey take a oath that, I wouldn`t blame anyone else for what happens to me. Deep in the situation`s theory, im sure, I`ll be the reason for what that happens. There you go, that made me feel better.

I`ve been wierd for the past 4 months. I`ve developed an incredible self esteem. The "I am What I am!!" attitude. Maybe wrong, but thats the way I am now! I`ve become an extrovert. Its a drastic change. From a selfless moron with no self respect, asking infinite sorrys just to get rid of the issues even if i had not done anything, to a guy who boasts of what he is. Its practically huge. But, we learn in life. And the lessons urge us to take decisions and change us. For now, I can say Im happy of what I am and I`ll be happy forever.One lesson that i`ve learnt is, if you have a problem you deal with it. No one else in the whole world are in a state to help you!
Its got philosophical today! sigh... chow..

Rampi Says....

The environment hasn`t changed, we are just immune to it!

Skating on the Soap!

You all know the story of Ram being vetti(jobless) all day. But does any of you know the story of Ram sitting and watching television all day? I agree. There isnt a considerable difference. But, I got more options in Tv now, than before. Yeah, it took me a record 6 months to persuade my parents to get a STB(set top box). Thats cable for the paid channels. I got it for the world cup. But by the time it was installed, India was out of the world cup. But, nevertheless, its been a great time pass.I get all the channels now, and I watch everything. Im so glued now, that my parents repaired the old portable television to watch the daily soaps. And believe me, there are quite a lot of them.

Before getting the Stb, I did a small thing by asking my parents to "sacrifice" the soaps for one night, coz I was watching a movie. Mom, after a considerable struggle gave up. Dad, was desperate. He was so desperate to have the remote and watch the soap. That was a little too much for missing a soap for a day. Its getting into the head of the people who stay at home. They get addicted to it. And I hate it when mom justifies it by saying "its just for entertainment". My god! Dad was fighting for the remote to me for "entertainment". And it was just one day! Ive never disturbed them when they watch that shit. And mom watches soaps in which she doesnt even know the name of the characters. And, believe me they are not even near good. I`ve went through some tooth-biting watching sessions. Its totally out-of-the-mind stuff. Its totally stupid. But yet they watch it like they got nothing else to do! This should end at some point of time. I sure do wish it does.

I`ve suddenly got this urge to blog everyday. And here I am! Its 1:45am and im sitting and typing. Today, or rather yesterday was good. Did nothing useful, but it was fun. Had to go out on a project work, and got it completed in a matter of time. Have been watching the match, WI vs NZ till now. WI are in a bad shape. and the black caps seem to be in good touch. I wish, SA or NZ to get the cup. Dunno what is gonna happen and who cares? India is out of the tournament.The thought of it haunts me. No more cricket talks!

Doin it the Goan Way!

Keep your ears wide open! Yeah, I said Goa! And, my requests have been granted finally by the guys. The tickets have been booked. We are leaving to goa on 13th of april and coming back on 20th. Thats a whole week. Im excited alright. The guys at a certain stage started calling me "goa fantasy guy" (I made that up!!). Now, the stage is set for the ultimate fun of the lifetime. Now i have to get geared up for a trip which is 2 weeks away. We are going directly to banglore. We stay there for a day and a night and then we leave for goa. Its gonna be fun with 10 guys on board. Looking forward to it! :)

Flash News: Ram, bought batteries and film rolls for the camera and has already started clicking his way to fame!!
(I agree! That was a little too much!!)

Yet Another Flash news: Ram could`nt stop talking to someone he hates!
(Yeah! Thats it! Im outta here!

Back To Hell!

The title doesn`t mean, Dindigul was a complete success. But yeah, I had to rush to college in the morning to get my project review done, came back home, slept for 5 hours and got up with a damned head ache. So, this is hell. But, Dindigul was fun. We were only 3 of us. We had a preety decent hotel room, and yeah we watched the pathetic match. It did not affect me much, the indians simply dint deserve to get into the super eights. But, yeah lets get over it and Im gonna forget cricket for sometime now.

We went to a place called, Sirumalai. A very beautiful endangered mountain range, which hardly had any human inhabitants. Well, thats apparently one of the place which would be close to my heart all the time. We took a helluva lot of pictures and yeah we had quality time there. The most embarassing parts of the trip is where we dine and interact with JK`s family. They were all good people, infact very good people who talked a language which none of us understood, and they cooked real damn well. But, dining at someone`s place whom we dont know, is embarassing. But we coped up well. And the marriage, was good. Good food, good people, unknown language, and very few people. We were the odd men out and i can say we really dint love it.

The heat riding up our spinal cords, upto the modula oblangada, we did manage pretty well. We went to another place called Mallai-Kottai(mountain-fort). Its a fort built by Tippu Sultan. Overall, it was a satisfactory trip and i dont regret it. But the heat is building up and guy like me who drives around half my life, its real hard. Now, im back to hell, and im being promoted in the office. Dont take it seriously. Im working in a vetti office. And im a vetti officer. Now, im the CEO of the office and believe me, there are quite a number of ppl working under me.

Rampi Says....

There are gonna be sections called Rampi Says here-after. This section contains great quotes.

Heres todays quote, Its from national current affairs.
(P.S. It maybe a bit gross!)

T.R.Balu, got shit from his colleagues, put it in his toilet and Forgot to flush!

(Another P.S. This is why im the king of mockai(pj)!)

Expensive Embarassment!

Yippee!! I`ve got my Slr camera finally! Thank you Kirthi, Love you! You can see me posting my works hereafter. But, thats gonna take some time. Im goin to Dindugul tommorow. Its a place near madurai. We,ie, me, Arun and Kugha, are goin to a friend`s(jaikumar`s) sister`s marriage. She is just his cousin sis, but yeah im goin to have some fun(yeah! In dindugul! Dont you dare raise your eyebrows!). I usually feel embarassed when im called to a function happening to someone whom i dont know! But yeah, thats how life is(I really dint have to say that, but whatever?!).

It once happened, when this bugger, Kugha, took us to a birthday party. You wont believe this. It was the birthday party of, one of his friend`s, who happened to a girl(aunty?!), mother, who turned 50! That really is one of the most ridiculous thing i`ve ever done. Me and Arun dint step in the party hall(?!). We went for a second to say hi to the girl(aunty?!). But we werent a part of it. They were singing a birthday song for a 50yr old woman, and she is obliging with a whole heart. Poor family. And after that, this is the occasion that i`m gonna get embarrassed. And the thing is, I`ve got tickets for 300 bucks and must cost the same for way back, and i`ll be getting some money from my parents to get embarassed. Im looking forward to it. But yeah, we are gonna be there for a coupla days. So it must be fun.

(P.S. This is to my sister, who probably is seriously reading this. No! I am not taking the camera down there!)

phbt

Ive been reading this book called, Road To Gandolfo. Its one helluva book! Its too damn good. Its stylish, the naration is breathtaking. Its more or less as stylish as the film departed. Yeah departed was very stylish flick. I saw the movie once at home and on the guys` request went to the cinemas to watch the film. Well to say the truth, it is a movie to be watched in the theatre. You dont get the feel of the movie when you watch it at home. And the excitement starts right when Jack Nicholson voice echoes,

I don't want to be a product of my environment. I want my environment to be a product of me.

till the end where Matt Damon says "Okay"! The most awesome character was Dignam, played by Mark Wahlberg. Hes just a guy, going around screwing everybody bigtime. Nice movie.


The world cup going on, and after a great great debate, my parents were convinced to get the Dish TV. Through which we get all the paid channels. It isnt installed yet. And its of no use. I wanted to watch all the world cup matches in digital quality. But india must have lost the game against the minnows, bangladesh by now. Its so freaking disappointing. Seriously, the guys should get used to playing without me(wink)!Wokay, thats it for now.

Missing a life!

Its been long since i posted, and im sorry for it. Today, there wasnt any power, i went out. Was standing in my portico(atleast thats what we call it). I was staring(yeah the same ole staring!!) at the cows outside. Nothing fascinating though. I saw a coupla kida come by. They were playing something. I dint understand what it was, but apparently they were having such a great time playing it. I still dont know what it was, but i admired the excitement i saw in the kids` faces. I miss that kind of innocent happiness. I wish i am a kid again.

I have this quote, which says "theres no point being a grown up, if u cant be childish sometimes" , and the picture says this was said by Dr Who. But it is true. Somethings trigger your childish self and it is a good feeling. Ive been childish once in a while with the guys, and apparently ended up being humiliated. That doesnt bother me much. Love you guys!! (im not gay, for heaven`s sake!!) But on the whole, we do have to be childish when we want to.

2 days back i saw a movie called paruthiveeran. It was a good one. The ending was a tragedy. I might have cried if i had seen the movie at home. Excellent performance by both the actors. And a lot of things have been happening around. Ive again lost sleep and will have to try hard for it. I have to forget things and get over it. It just takes time and fortunately, i have all the time in my life. My project is completed and ready to be submitted.

Life as it is!!

What has been going on for th last week has been phenomenally un-understandable. I`m absolutely happy, but dont look happy, i love parents, but dont show it to them, I love being at home, but look as if im reluctant to get out. Honestly, I dont understand the theory of this kind of actions or rather stupidity. Theoritically, these are just the mannerisms which are changed mannually. But, believe me I tried, and especially when you dont know why you are like this, you tend to think a lot and thats what is happening to me. I dont want to get back to the days where I stare walls and get myself called insane, though it is not insanity.

The above paragraph made no sense(it does to me). But yeah here goes. Yesterday was one of the most pathetic trips in my lifetime. It was fun to be around with the guys but none the less, it was disgusting.ugh! There was a pretty good video made in the bus, where we did our trademark dialogues. That only was fun. Other than that, I hated every minute of the trip. Forgettable one.

Things that have been happening, just dont make any kind of sense to me. Just when I was sure that I was in control of everything with respect to me, something out of my control just happens. I talk to someone, to whome I never wanted to talk, I get angry on one of my very good buddies. But I still do believe it was his mistake. It was petty fight. It never meant anything serious, but he should`ve appologised rather than irritating me further. I got pissed big time and now, im not even returning his calls. Life just gets stupid as time goes by. If i just ignore him, i really dont have anyone else. But he should`ve asked sorry. and the fact that, he never asks sorry, triggers it all!

Freaking Life!

Its been a really really long time since ive posted! Apparently aving a blast! Got my 2nd review for my project done today. Went on well. But they say, the project doesnt have that much of a complexity. But who cares? The point is to get a pass. It works like this; you do a project so damn perfect with absolutely no flaws he gets through with a centum, you finish the project, but there are these flaws and stuffs, you get a 90%; you dont finish your project but you`ve given it a try, you get a 80%; if you havent done much of it at all, you get a 70%; and if u havent started it, but you have just told them what you are doing, you get 60%! So, wtf?? I`ll clear it anyways, and for the records, i should get a 90%! The project is the sadder part of my life right now.

There is this, music album which was released this week. Its called Chennai 600028. Music composer : Yuvan Shankar Raja. Its good. Not mind blowing and all, jus okay. But I`ve listened to nothing but it for quite sometime now. Basically because, the music is all about taking life easily. And yeah, thats the mantra right now. I found this awesome tagline. It goes this way, "Life is Beautiful - Terms and Conditions apply". I was flattened. It was so funny, yet makes a serious note!

Tomorrow, we are going to the so called IV(Industrial Visit). Yeah supposedly the whole class. The 1st thing that comes to the mind when I think about tommorow is "Gross"! For the 1st every time, the whole class is going and to what place?? Its a resort, called Golden Sun in the ECR! So damn stupid, jus because that was the place, where we guys once went and had the best of fun! Thats the place where p2v broke is leg on his b`day! That was fun and lot of things happened after that. We did have some outrageous fun, but that was a day to be remembered. Dont know how disgusting tommorow is going to be.Ugh!

Anyways, anything with the guys around is fun. And talking about now, Ive been reading a helluva lot of calvin and Hobbes. Calvin is getting some serious respect from me. Some of his qoutes are so damn funny that i think of it and laugh! I`ll just put up some slides which i found damn funny!






There are lots! I have the whole series from 1985 to 1995! :)

It indeed is a Wonderful Life!

Ive always went back in time and imagined myself as a kid crying my heart out for something. And believe it or not, i was literally weeping today after watching a movie called its a wonderful life. Its an old 1946 flick which came into my scanner pretty late. Easily became the best movie all times! It jus tells you that your life is worth living. There might have been a lot things which you may have done with or without your knowledge, which may have a made a difference in other people`s lives. And that difference might just have been their lives.

Its good to watch these kind of movies. They just turn out to be an eye opner sometimes. Just when you are cribbing and whining about your life being totally worthless and you are just making people worser than they are, the movie tells you how important you are and what kind of purpose you have achieved in your lifetime. Its an old saying, every person in the world have a purpose. With or without their knowledge they just live fulfilling their assigned purpose. And, I still cant believe i weeped like a child after watching this movie. I told about the film to suresh( who asked me to watch it) and we both started crying. Its funny sometimes.

Magnolia

I`ll tell you what!! Doing nothing is a lot of fun. Thats what i`ve been doing for the past 3 days. Went to Pachaikili Muthucharam on friday, hoping it would be good. Well, it was derailed taken in an extremely bad way! And moreover, I dont like these guys-cheating-on-their-wives movies. I`d rather not think nor talk about the movie.
I saw coupla more movies which are worth talking about. One is magnolia. This is a multistarrer, with most of the stars infamous. The only famous ones are Tom Cruise and Julliane Moore. It was good movie. Taken beautifully. I jus saw the movie, empty headed, and i wasnt able to understand many parts of the movie. Like, the scene where it starts raining frogs! Then i had to look up for details. That sums up how jobless I am! I found this info about the mythology of exodus 8:2. It was interesting and the thing that fascinates me is that, the director has taken the movie corresponding to the myth and hes done it in a modern way. Its a damn good movie and worth a watch.

The next movie is "The Inside Man". Well, it is a hollywood movie and it starts with our very own, Chaiyya Chaiyya song by God(Rahman). One of the most stylish movie Ive seen after V for Vendatta. Yeah here again, the dialogues matters. Clive Owen is too good and makes me jealous most of the times and my man, Denzel Washington also does a pretty good job. But for me the highlight is the song. Its a damn good mix and it merges superbly with the movie.I saw it till the end of credits jus because of the song. see? nowadays, ive got absolutely nothing to post about.

What the hell am I supposed to write now?? I really cant think of anything. Its really different now. Absolutely no worries and not a thing to whine about. Truly happy! Even the most disappointing incidents, though irrepairable are gotten over and, now, i have to think of something to feel bad about and yet I dont find any! This is totally different. There is a considerable difference after the results at home too. Dad`s all enthusiastic and all. Its me who is trying to be a bit down, or am I? What I need is, a nice freak out session for another week. I wanna have real fun. but not enough plans!!

What the hell?? next challenge im gonna face is when I join work. Its gonna take a while untill that happens. Okay!! Ive done enough thinking of what to write next!! Thats that! cya!

End of result Mania!

Yeah!!! The doomsday has arrived and the results were suddenly published. Okay!! I went to the gym, working my ass off to reduce weight. Took my phone during the break and there were 4 missed calls and 3 msgs. Good god! And one of the msg was from sriram!! It said, "U all pass!". Goddamnit. I jumped. The 1st thing is, i did not expect it today. The 2nd thing is i did not expect an all pass! The 3rd thing is i most certainly did not expect a 73%! It may seem low, but trust me, it a helluva lot, for me atleast! I called him right away to confirm. And he did confirm. Called mom and asked her too check it out.

Good day it was. Saw 2 movies. Last night, i was damn tired off the turtle walk(which deserves another post)! MY eyes begged for some rest, but i did not want the day to end! Something told me the result would come today but most of the sites said it wasnt today! So i wanted yesterday to last longer. I slept at midnight. Woke up today at noon. Watched 2 movies, my girl and much ado about nothing in sony pix. Dint care a damn about the results. Went to the gym. I have this omen thing when results are coming out. It is considered by me that, if results are out when im not home, it turns out to be good. Thats what happened last time! Guess it is nothing, the results depend on what i have written in the paper. Now, i have 2 more theory papers and a project. Im quite sure there isnt going to be any result phobia anymore! A happy farewell to the worst feeling in my life, forever!

Result Mania!!

Okay!! This is one of the 2 times of the year that Iam totally out of my conscience!
It is the time when the result are expected anytime. I`ll just give a briefing abt how the results have treated me every year.

The mania/phobia started back in 2001 during my 10th results. I was one among the 7 ppl in the school who dint pass with a distinction.I got a 79%!! I got screwed royally for that. Then it was 2003, during my 12th results. No one expected much out of me, as most of them knew i wasnt going to get much marks. An dad, he jus prayed that i should pass! Then i got 82%. That dint seem much to me. But one of the 1st time, dad congradulated me! I cud find no reason for him to congradulate me, but later i realised, he expected a mere pass from me.

Here comes the college result phobia history!

January 2004 : It was a friday afternoon. Bunked college and had come home! This guy called p2v called me. He said results were out. He usually was the last man i could trust. I dint believe it, but then realised it was true. He saw my results and he did say that i cleared all the papers and i owed him a treat. I got 75% in the 1st semester. After that, there was no turning back.

August 2004 : It was a saturday evening, me, anush(a pal from my bus), kk(karthik) and vimal(one of my seniors) had gone to the besant nagar beach, just to have fun. And we did have fun! and on my way back, i got the news that results were out. I had got an instant shaker running in my stomache, and the process continues ever after. I stopped half way, caught up with a friend, and saw the results in a stupid browsing center. I had flunked in 1 paper. It was maths II!! It looked as if i had lost a lot in my life. I cried for hours and apologised a million times to my parents, who were in the us!! Then i dont know how, i moved on.

February 2005 : The months of, aug,sept,oct and nov of 2004, i was all by myself and you could imagine how i wudve prepared! I wrote the exams with a wierd gut. But the result was obvious. I had cleared the old maths II paper and now there was the maths III paper!! I dint expect to flunk in that stupid paper, though i expected to flunk in some other paper. But this was shitty.My parents were here when the result came and got royally screwed in the arse! Big time!! Again, I still do not understand, how i got over it.

July 2005 : This time, i was nurtured under the watchful eyes of my PARENTS! I did study before the exams, and i cleared all the papers except the good ole maths III. But dint get screwed big time. This was because, i had already told my folks that i wud flunk in that subject. I dint have to get over anything! Just went on!

February 2006 : A few days after kirthi left chennai. The squarebrothers.com had posted that the results will be published that night 7pm. It was extended to 9pm. Finally it was released near midnight. I was shocked! I was fairly confident that i will clear the maths III. But they had put a horrifying 8 out 80! I was totally pissed. But again, got royally screwed. Worst days of my life. But i got over it when i concentrated on something else. But i was too damned pissed and my placement depended on it!Everyone at home were upset. I did not know what i would do with my future, nor did my dad. The most horrifying 5 months, untill...

5th,August 2006 : The results of my 6th semester was released, when i was taking arun and jai for a treat.Ironically it was the next day of my placement. It was a heavenly feeling. It was after 2 years that i saw a result which had an all pass sheet for me. I was thrilled, overwhelmed by the sudden success. I sometimes acted too smart and sometimes too dumb. And wrote the 7th semester exams.

I rally cant explain how i wrote it. I cant say i did it bad, but nor can i say im 100% confident. But i wish, or hope, i clear all the papers. The shaker has already started running in my stomache.

The Pursuit Of Happyness!

This was a beautiful movie! It is about a guy called Chris Gardner, who later became a big time stock broker. Now, this movie`s got Will Smith. I`ve been a big fan of his, especially after watching Fresh Prince of Belair. The guy was hilarious in that show, and he does a contrasting role in this movie. He has played the role beautifully. The movie was beautifully taken and Will Smith`s narration was tremendous. Especially when he says, "This is the part of my life, I call happiness", a tear literally runs through your cheeks. My kind of movie, and has all the ingredients for the oscars.

The other movie which i saw was, The Departed. The movie was good, Awesome show by Jack Nicholson, Leonardo Di Caprio and Matt Damon. Nicely taken, Good screenplay! But it reminded me of the tamil movie Kuruthipunal! It must be ecstatic of me to compare a tamil movie with an oscar nominated movie. The 2 movies have nothing much in common. But, the story is somewhat similar. The police puts a rat in the bad guy`s empire and the bad guys a rat in the police empire. Thats what both the movie has. But, what happens in the 2 movies is totally a different story! They have nothing in common. Nice watchable movie, departed, stylish, but lacks a little bit of oscar substance.

So Near Yet So Far!

The topic absolutely makes no sense! But I was thinking of a lot of things that corresponds to that lil saying. I was waiting on my bike in the middle of a traffic jam.Had to go to a medical shop. It was abput 100 yards, but i cudnt go when i wanted to. See? that constitutes to "So Near Yet So Far!". Typically me aint it? Absolutely making no sense. To be honest, I`ve been thinking a lot of stuffs which constitutes the same thing.

Had a coupla exams today at college, It was so funny! It made absolutely no sense, for us to avoid the 150 bucks fine, we had to write the exams. Noe the new rule is that, if we get to fail we get to pay a fine of 100bucks. Thats absurdly funny! It is totally my wish to pass or fail in my exam. But, in our case, there is an understanding between the good staffs and us. They promised us, "write something in the paper, we`ll pass you, and you dont have to pay the fine" Goddamnit! We are too lucky! Every college should have good staffs like these to break the stupid rules that the college makes!

Its been quite a while since i`ve posted. Well, i actually was kind of busy. The day after the party, i slept all day.The next day that is on wednesday, we left for this place called pennadam, for a marriage. It was my cousin`s marriage. I really dont know her much, but had to go, coz I was the spare driver. It was my uncle who drove most of the time. Damn he was fast!! You shud see the look on dad`s face! And the better side is, I touched a 120 and dad dint say a word.

And about the party, monday night, it was fun. A whole lot of people were there. Had a nice swim, had pretty okay food and listened to music. And we talked, talked, talked and talked! Even after going to bed, me and suresh were blabbering for half an hour. Got up the next morning, had a great swim, tanned ourselves in the morning sun and listened to Rahman for 2 hours! Then we left, came back home and slept for the whole day.

Then about the trip to pennadam. I stayed in a house, typically of the village type. It was beautiful. And then the marriage. I really felt a pity for them, the couple. They dint even talk to each other. The girl(my cousin), looked like she seriously needed a shoulder to lie down and cry on. Poor female! And no one recognised me! Absolutely no one! I was like the dude of the village!

Then we went to this place called, vadalur. There was some carnival and it was the anniversary of a guy called Ramalinga Adigalar. I usually am not fascinated by going to temples on speacial days and worshipping them. But this guy, he has done nothing, except writing poems and doing yoga. This man lived 200 years ago and he is said to have vanished in thin air. And for this man, and on his death anniversary, there are literally lakhs of people coming to give their respect to him. What we apparently see is a burning camphor through a translucent glass. And believe me, there were atleat 1 lakh people witnessing it. I was really fascinated. I wish I cud go next year.

Today, we happened to go to a symposium at anna university. Its called abacus 2007. I laid my feet on all the competitions, but i did wat i do best! I put mockai! If you dont know what that means, its just pathetic jokes(pjs). Me and ma buddy, suresh showed our skills all over the prelims question paper and we were the 1st among the finalists! For an example, our team name was "Masala Dahi Aloo Sev Pani Puri"!! They had to announce it on stage! We have our finals tomoro, LOL! Its gonna be fun!